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My sponsor, "Remember when you told me you didn't have problems with pride?" ....too prideful to admit I'm prideful.
too prideful to say I love you first
to say .."it bothers me when you do this"
to let anyone know I'm bothered at all, that I sometimes rely on them..
I know reliance upon others is wrong. I know that it keeps happening, that it makes me feel weak.
I guess it's part of being human
but it doesn't feel relative because humans don't talk about how much they need and rely on each other.
to admit that would be embarrassing... we would rather choke... we need to be brave.
and because no one talks about it I feel alone
and because I feel alone I try and stay busy
and because I stay busy I can avoid the discomfort of placing my love and loyalty in human beings rather than my Higher Power.
too prideful to say I love you first
to say .."it bothers me when you do this"
to let anyone know I'm bothered at all, that I sometimes rely on them..
I know reliance upon others is wrong. I know that it keeps happening, that it makes me feel weak.
I guess it's part of being human
but it doesn't feel relative because humans don't talk about how much they need and rely on each other.
to admit that would be embarrassing... we would rather choke... we need to be brave.
and because no one talks about it I feel alone
and because I feel alone I try and stay busy
and because I stay busy I can avoid the discomfort of placing my love and loyalty in human beings rather than my Higher Power.