Long long long time
It has been forever and seven days since I have even thought of updating my poor neglected LJ. So much has not happened since we last spoke. What prompted my to post of course was seeing her working at deathguild tonight. It just made me feel a little bit more like shit than I already do. Slim died a couple of weeks ago and of course I could't make the memorial which considering how much I hate those thins might be for the best. Needless to say I still can barely walk and my leg always fuckin hurts. They are tightening the budget belt at work and habve cut all my overtime so I am working 3 jobs to try and keep my head above water. I asked my boss about transfering to seattle since the IS position opened up there a few months ago, but the hiring freeze and other budget cuts have hampered my chances. Keep your fingers crossed though. Ever since coming back from my brothers funeral a few months I have had a strong urge to be closer to my family even toying with the idea of moving back to vancouver. It's just damn expensive for me to be in SF right now I don't have the physical strangth or stamnina to enjoy the city and have come to loathe living in the tenderloin. It has sapped any compassion I might once have had. Stepping ovee human refuse every day to get in to my little studio only to have my TV drowned out by the mosque below me. I haven't been checking email or returning phone calls hoping somehow to disapear. Too many people dying too many bills too much pain and I am still afraid of hearing her say my name.