BEWARE
Long rambling update ahead. Oh why do i do these things late at night? I'm doing this at a good time though because tomorrow err tonight is my brothers birthday and I am guaranteed to have fun so if this brings me down it won't be for long.
I've been amongst this community of people for sometime and some things still shock me. I'm shocked to discover the people who I have come to love as a part of my family and who I would be proud to bring home and let my mother feed. I don't give up fourth servings for many people. Everything i'm saying is totally going against my last long update. i do hate thinking. hate it (see last long'n) so instead of thinking too much i've decided to just talk. and when i run out of things to say, random things, my update will be over. I have planned this out though. It will jump from subject to subject but i guarantee if you at least skim it you'll find some obscure mention of yourself. or you'll fit into a category of people i am referring to. Don't trust me but i bet it'll be worth it. You'll find out something about me aswell if you think i'm worth that.
First I just want to touch on one of my dearest friends, brothers even. He lives in my pocket. I recieved one of the most endearing compliments ever from Billy Boyd. He called me decent. Do you know how many people have called me decent? one,him.Do you know how many people actually believe it to be true? probably less that i could count on my fingers. That means a lot. Just wanted to say.
I've also come to realize I am a big idiot. Why you ask? Although you probably aren't asking just naming off reasons in your head. I gave up the best relationship I have ever had. probably ever will have. Because i wanted to sleep with other woman and explore something that turned out to be foolish because this other woman had never even thought of me the way i was feeling about her. How stupid am i? And i broke it off thinking I could get back together with Lyss. How naive could i get. I had this woman who i got along with and had this dynamic relationship with. And i threw it away for what? A cheap thrill.I still love her though. Its a shame i wasn't strong enough for her. And not mature enough for anyone else.
Justins "disapearance" was tough. True colors were reavealed. I didn't know what to do. protect my family? What family? It seemed there were very few people still holding on to that bond. People thinking only of themselves and how much justin would love them when he "got back" because of what they were doing. or how much he wouldn't love them. Never in my life had i wanted to be anyone but me at this moment. i'd give anything for that kid except turn my back on my family including him. Just don't tell him that.
Something minor but important none the less. When that James guy called me out. I had my friends back me up. It felt really good to be the one protected for once even if i didn't need it. they also said really good things about me :-*.
I think that should cover it.
Wheres my Porkie? I miss my TaraMay like the desert misses the rain. Thats a lot. Also JC. Stop hidin fool. Be a man. Lance too. Please like your family still don't love you. Princess we gotta get drunk soon man, juan too. You bring the beer.
YUPOS
I've been amongst this community of people for sometime and some things still shock me. I'm shocked to discover the people who I have come to love as a part of my family and who I would be proud to bring home and let my mother feed. I don't give up fourth servings for many people. Everything i'm saying is totally going against my last long update. i do hate thinking. hate it (see last long'n) so instead of thinking too much i've decided to just talk. and when i run out of things to say, random things, my update will be over. I have planned this out though. It will jump from subject to subject but i guarantee if you at least skim it you'll find some obscure mention of yourself. or you'll fit into a category of people i am referring to. Don't trust me but i bet it'll be worth it. You'll find out something about me aswell if you think i'm worth that.
First I just want to touch on one of my dearest friends, brothers even. He lives in my pocket. I recieved one of the most endearing compliments ever from Billy Boyd. He called me decent. Do you know how many people have called me decent? one,him.Do you know how many people actually believe it to be true? probably less that i could count on my fingers. That means a lot. Just wanted to say.
I've also come to realize I am a big idiot. Why you ask? Although you probably aren't asking just naming off reasons in your head. I gave up the best relationship I have ever had. probably ever will have. Because i wanted to sleep with other woman and explore something that turned out to be foolish because this other woman had never even thought of me the way i was feeling about her. How stupid am i? And i broke it off thinking I could get back together with Lyss. How naive could i get. I had this woman who i got along with and had this dynamic relationship with. And i threw it away for what? A cheap thrill.I still love her though. Its a shame i wasn't strong enough for her. And not mature enough for anyone else.
Justins "disapearance" was tough. True colors were reavealed. I didn't know what to do. protect my family? What family? It seemed there were very few people still holding on to that bond. People thinking only of themselves and how much justin would love them when he "got back" because of what they were doing. or how much he wouldn't love them. Never in my life had i wanted to be anyone but me at this moment. i'd give anything for that kid except turn my back on my family including him. Just don't tell him that.
Something minor but important none the less. When that James guy called me out. I had my friends back me up. It felt really good to be the one protected for once even if i didn't need it. they also said really good things about me :-*.
I think that should cover it.
Wheres my Porkie? I miss my TaraMay like the desert misses the rain. Thats a lot. Also JC. Stop hidin fool. Be a man. Lance too. Please like your family still don't love you. Princess we gotta get drunk soon man, juan too. You bring the beer.
YUPOS