IM FAT

[jprswim]

over the past month i have been eating whatever the hell i want. i just wanted to see what would happened. leading up to this month a lot of people have been telling me that i need to gain some more weight bc i had lost so much since stopping swimming, or so it appears. so i tossed the JP diet aside and said im going to eat whatever the hell i want

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[zarkazstic]

okay, so body issues run in my fam. my sister is a recovering bulemic and what not. in high school i was in tennis and wrestling. so i totally counted calories and took metabolic enhancers like ripped fuel. senior year, i quit wrestling and started eating whatever i wanted. anyways, at graduation, i looked like happy buddha. so the summer before freshman year of college i started taking ephedrine. so i got really thin. anyways, i re-watched requiem for a dream and decided maybe i should stop. so i've been like oprah, losing and gaining weight over the past three years. it was easy to keep my weight down from 2002-2004 because i was dancing so much. like i'd have two rehearsals a day 4-5 days a week. but since i've been acting, i'd needed to discipline myself to exercise.

it's funny you asked that question, because i was looking at shirtless pics of me over the years, and i've really let myself go. but it's strange, because at the time i thought i was really fat. now i'm really fat, and i'm thinking, i would kill to be 2002's version of fat any day.

but yeah, do i diet? i was vegetarian for over a year because it made me cognizant of what i was putting in my mouth. i think you just have to re-evaluate things before you eat; like ask yourself "do i really want to put this in my body?" now i eat something with chicken after my workout, you know for protein. i've probably tried every single diet out there. my family's big, so i'm really just been trying to fight genetics.

why did i write so much? you should be careful with open ended questions.