Promise 2 --AkaMe--
Title: Promise [Two-Shot]
Pairing: AkaMe
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst!
Disclaimer: I own the story but not the characters.
Summary: It is hard for Kazuya to move on. It is hard for Kazuya to live without thinking of him. It is hard for Kazuya to smile every day without faking it. It is hard for Kazuya to sleep every night without crying. It is hard for Kazuya to erase his feelings for Jin. Especially when he is still holding onto the promise they made 7 years ago.
A/N: This fic is just a way to vent my anger and disappointment towards…
Reminders: Jin’s thoughts are in black background while Kazuya’s thoughts are in orange.
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Sitting in front of each other inside Jin’s dressing room, an awkward silence engulfs the room. No one dares to start a proper conversation. Kazuya’s avoiding Jin’s scrutinizing eyes. He looks down and plays with his earphones instead.
Jin can’t help not to eye Kazuya. In his point of view, Kazuya had changed so much. He doesn’t have that girly body anymore but it has been replaced by a manly and muscular body. His face is not that thin as well. But he had to admit, Kazuya looks more handsome and stunning now.
“So…how are you?” Jin asked as he cleared his throat and rearranges his sitting position. His eyes soften as he saw Kazuya fidgeted. He’s still cute.
“It’s n-none of your business.” Kazuya’s softly said as he looks up and stare at Jin with eyes showing pain.
Jin’s eyes widen because of what Kazuya said. It certainly is a shock for him and it’s as if a hand is squeezing his heart; making him breathless.
“K-Kazuya…”
“Y-You don’t have any rights to call me by my first name.” Kazuya muttered as he looks away and hastily wiped a stubborn tear that fell off his eye.
For Jin, it hurts seeing Kazuya acting like this around him; it’s as if Jin is just a stranger for Kazuya. It’s as if they are not acquainted to each other. It’s as if they didn’t
have…had a special relationship, a special connection.
“Stop treating me as if we are still acquainted to each other.” Kame said while smiling bitterly. This is the right thing to do. I need to set him free. Maybe by doing this, I can move on… I can leave the past and live in the current and maybe I can face the future.
“Kazuya please stop acting like this.” Jin muttered as he bites his lower lip and stood up. He goes to Kazuya and hugs him protectively. And there, Kazuya released the tears he has been holding since earlier.
“Stop making this hard for the both of us!” Kazuya yelled as he sobbed and struggled. The pain is just too much for him. “Stop acting as if you still care, you’re just making things worst for me!”
Jin closes his eyes as he hugs Kazuya tighter; not wanting to let go. He looks up to stop his tears and bites his lower lip. Why is he feeling this way? Why is his body acting like this? He shouldn’t care anymore. He has Meisa and Theia.
“I still care Kazuya.” Jin whispered as he buries his face to the younger’s hair. “I didn’t stop caring when it comes to you.”
Kazuya stopped struggling as Jin’s words made him froze. His heart started beating fast and more tears came out of his swollen eyes. What’s Jin’s plan? Why is he saying all of this? Why now? Why Jin didn’t tell him those 7 years ago? Is Jin saying he still care because of pity? Does he look pitiful in Jin’s eyes?
“No, you’re lying…” Kazuya said as he pushes Jin away harshly. He stood up and throws his phone to Jin; making the earphones gets unplugged and the special song that’s currently playing resounds in the room. Kazuya gulped as he recognizes it. Kizuna…
“I’m not Kazuya! You know I can’t lie to you!” Jin reasoned out as a tear fell off his eye and stood up as he heard the so-called AkaMe’s special song.
“If you really care about me, you should’ve said so 7 years ago!” Kazuya snarled as he slaps Jin hard. His eyes widen as he realized what he had done. He shakily raises his hand and stares at it as it quivers.
Jin felt stupefied. Kazuya’s right. Why didn’t he say those 7 years ago? Does he really still care?
“7 years ago, we were so happy. We were too indulged in the idea of love; we didn’t set limits to our feelings especially me. I loved you with all my heart. 7 years ago, I believed that you will be the one that will stand beside me when I needed someone, will help me to stand up again if I fall. But I guess I’m too stupid. You suddenly decided to study abroad; leaving KAT-TUN behind…leaving me behind. Even though supporting you contradicts my wants, I still encouraged you. Even though I hated the fact that you actually had the guts to leave even though we just debuted, I still supported you because after all, studying abroad is your dream. But I had my conditions. You should go back to us; you shouldn’t forget the fact that without J.E and KAT-TUN, you’re nothing. You promised me those Jin, you promised us. KAT-TUN promised you that we will work very hard so that when you come back, you will have no rights to change into an almighty prince. But what happened? When you came back, we were very delighted. But you just shoved us away because you’re ‘tired’. I can still remember it Jin. I can still remember that day when you shoved Taguchi away because you’re sick of his puns, you shoved Ueda away because you hated his aura, you shoved Koki away because you hated his attitude, and you shoved Nakamaru away because you’re sick of hearing his beat box. You became someone we don’t know. The fans thought that KAT-TUN’s okay because you’re back. But they don’t realize that our smiles were fake and our bond being strong is nothing but just a mere false.” Kazuya said as he glares at Jin intently. After for so many years, finally, he can voice out his feelings. He has been waiting for so long to say all of those.. There’s no backing out…
Jin stood still at his place. He felt…stupid all of a sudden. Kazuya’s words are like daggers. It is piercing right through his chest. After 7 years, he just now realized that he broke all of his promises as he returned back to KAT-TUN. He had forgotten the fact that without the band, he’s nothing. He threw them out of his priorities, He threw his Kazuya out of his priorities. I’m the worst.
“And one more thing…” Kazuya muttered as he sniffs and wipes his tears harshly, “…you also broke that one special promise we made; that one special promise that we vowed to protect.”
Jin’s head snapped towards Kazuya as the word special promise came out of the latter’s mouth. He gulps and stares at Kazuya, his tears falling non-stop. He hates the fact that all of Kazuya’s words are true. He also hates the fact that Kazuya is crying because of him. Seeing Kazuya all broken now just made his heart shattered into pieces.
“I bet you already forgot about it. After all, you already left the past behind. I don’t know why but I am still protecting that promise we made. And that promise is that we will never forget each other. We will never forget the fact that…that…” Kazuya cannot continue anymore. His eyes can’t stop producing tears. He plops down the floor and sobs. He buries his face on his knees.
“I-It’s u-useless, a-all of my efforts a-are useless.” Kazuya said in between his sobs. “I-I’m nothing to you… Y-You didn’t even end our relationship properly! A-And then in just a snap of a finger, n-news will reach me a-about you marrying Meisa a-and h-having a baby along the w-way!”
Jin looks down at Kazuya. He felt a pinch in his heart as he sees Kazuya all broken. God, what have I done? He kneels down in front of Kazuya and hugs the younger tight, attempting to give him comfort.
“I’m sorr-“
“You think your sorry will resolve everything!?” Kazuya yelled as he tries to push Jin away but all of his attempts were futile for he is already weak. He is weak physically, mentally and emotionally.
‘I’m not expecting you to forgive me! B-But I want you to know that I…I really love you Kazuya. I loved you in the past, I love you in the current and I will love you in the future. P-Please b-believe me…” Jin sincerely said as he hugs Kazuya tighter. Kazuya cried even more as the words he longed to hear from the guy he loved so much are now being said to him.
“But I guess everything’s too late already.” Jin added as his tears stained Kazuya’s neck.
Snap! Jin’s right. Everything’s too late already…
“Y-You’re right. Everything’s late already.” Kazuya said bitterly. “TOO late… W-We can’t be t-together anymore…” Kazuya added as he clutches on Jin’s shirt.
I know I need to let go… But, let me have this time to love him. Just this once and I promise that this will be the last. I understand already that he will never be mine again. Jin thought as he pulls Kazuya closer and hugs him tight. “I love you Kazuya…”
It hurts. I can’t let him go. I…I love him. But what can we do? He has his own life. He’s already committed to Meisa and he is carrying a big responsibility as Theia’s father… I guess we should just accept the reality. There is no chance that we will be together. He will…He will never be mine again.
“I love you too…Jin.”
Pairing: AkaMe
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst!
Disclaimer: I own the story but not the characters.
Summary: It is hard for Kazuya to move on. It is hard for Kazuya to live without thinking of him. It is hard for Kazuya to smile every day without faking it. It is hard for Kazuya to sleep every night without crying. It is hard for Kazuya to erase his feelings for Jin. Especially when he is still holding onto the promise they made 7 years ago.
A/N: This fic is just a way to vent my anger and disappointment towards…
Reminders: Jin’s thoughts are in black background while Kazuya’s thoughts are in orange.
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Sitting in front of each other inside Jin’s dressing room, an awkward silence engulfs the room. No one dares to start a proper conversation. Kazuya’s avoiding Jin’s scrutinizing eyes. He looks down and plays with his earphones instead.
Jin can’t help not to eye Kazuya. In his point of view, Kazuya had changed so much. He doesn’t have that girly body anymore but it has been replaced by a manly and muscular body. His face is not that thin as well. But he had to admit, Kazuya looks more handsome and stunning now.
“So…how are you?” Jin asked as he cleared his throat and rearranges his sitting position. His eyes soften as he saw Kazuya fidgeted. He’s still cute.
“It’s n-none of your business.” Kazuya’s softly said as he looks up and stare at Jin with eyes showing pain.
Jin’s eyes widen because of what Kazuya said. It certainly is a shock for him and it’s as if a hand is squeezing his heart; making him breathless.
“K-Kazuya…”
“Y-You don’t have any rights to call me by my first name.” Kazuya muttered as he looks away and hastily wiped a stubborn tear that fell off his eye.
For Jin, it hurts seeing Kazuya acting like this around him; it’s as if Jin is just a stranger for Kazuya. It’s as if they are not acquainted to each other. It’s as if they didn’t
have…had a special relationship, a special connection.
“Stop treating me as if we are still acquainted to each other.” Kame said while smiling bitterly. This is the right thing to do. I need to set him free. Maybe by doing this, I can move on… I can leave the past and live in the current and maybe I can face the future.
“Kazuya please stop acting like this.” Jin muttered as he bites his lower lip and stood up. He goes to Kazuya and hugs him protectively. And there, Kazuya released the tears he has been holding since earlier.
“Stop making this hard for the both of us!” Kazuya yelled as he sobbed and struggled. The pain is just too much for him. “Stop acting as if you still care, you’re just making things worst for me!”
Jin closes his eyes as he hugs Kazuya tighter; not wanting to let go. He looks up to stop his tears and bites his lower lip. Why is he feeling this way? Why is his body acting like this? He shouldn’t care anymore. He has Meisa and Theia.
“I still care Kazuya.” Jin whispered as he buries his face to the younger’s hair. “I didn’t stop caring when it comes to you.”
Kazuya stopped struggling as Jin’s words made him froze. His heart started beating fast and more tears came out of his swollen eyes. What’s Jin’s plan? Why is he saying all of this? Why now? Why Jin didn’t tell him those 7 years ago? Is Jin saying he still care because of pity? Does he look pitiful in Jin’s eyes?
“No, you’re lying…” Kazuya said as he pushes Jin away harshly. He stood up and throws his phone to Jin; making the earphones gets unplugged and the special song that’s currently playing resounds in the room. Kazuya gulped as he recognizes it. Kizuna…
“I’m not Kazuya! You know I can’t lie to you!” Jin reasoned out as a tear fell off his eye and stood up as he heard the so-called AkaMe’s special song.
“If you really care about me, you should’ve said so 7 years ago!” Kazuya snarled as he slaps Jin hard. His eyes widen as he realized what he had done. He shakily raises his hand and stares at it as it quivers.
Jin felt stupefied. Kazuya’s right. Why didn’t he say those 7 years ago? Does he really still care?
“7 years ago, we were so happy. We were too indulged in the idea of love; we didn’t set limits to our feelings especially me. I loved you with all my heart. 7 years ago, I believed that you will be the one that will stand beside me when I needed someone, will help me to stand up again if I fall. But I guess I’m too stupid. You suddenly decided to study abroad; leaving KAT-TUN behind…leaving me behind. Even though supporting you contradicts my wants, I still encouraged you. Even though I hated the fact that you actually had the guts to leave even though we just debuted, I still supported you because after all, studying abroad is your dream. But I had my conditions. You should go back to us; you shouldn’t forget the fact that without J.E and KAT-TUN, you’re nothing. You promised me those Jin, you promised us. KAT-TUN promised you that we will work very hard so that when you come back, you will have no rights to change into an almighty prince. But what happened? When you came back, we were very delighted. But you just shoved us away because you’re ‘tired’. I can still remember it Jin. I can still remember that day when you shoved Taguchi away because you’re sick of his puns, you shoved Ueda away because you hated his aura, you shoved Koki away because you hated his attitude, and you shoved Nakamaru away because you’re sick of hearing his beat box. You became someone we don’t know. The fans thought that KAT-TUN’s okay because you’re back. But they don’t realize that our smiles were fake and our bond being strong is nothing but just a mere false.” Kazuya said as he glares at Jin intently. After for so many years, finally, he can voice out his feelings. He has been waiting for so long to say all of those.. There’s no backing out…
Jin stood still at his place. He felt…stupid all of a sudden. Kazuya’s words are like daggers. It is piercing right through his chest. After 7 years, he just now realized that he broke all of his promises as he returned back to KAT-TUN. He had forgotten the fact that without the band, he’s nothing. He threw them out of his priorities, He threw his Kazuya out of his priorities. I’m the worst.
“And one more thing…” Kazuya muttered as he sniffs and wipes his tears harshly, “…you also broke that one special promise we made; that one special promise that we vowed to protect.”
Jin’s head snapped towards Kazuya as the word special promise came out of the latter’s mouth. He gulps and stares at Kazuya, his tears falling non-stop. He hates the fact that all of Kazuya’s words are true. He also hates the fact that Kazuya is crying because of him. Seeing Kazuya all broken now just made his heart shattered into pieces.
“I bet you already forgot about it. After all, you already left the past behind. I don’t know why but I am still protecting that promise we made. And that promise is that we will never forget each other. We will never forget the fact that…that…” Kazuya cannot continue anymore. His eyes can’t stop producing tears. He plops down the floor and sobs. He buries his face on his knees.
“I-It’s u-useless, a-all of my efforts a-are useless.” Kazuya said in between his sobs. “I-I’m nothing to you… Y-You didn’t even end our relationship properly! A-And then in just a snap of a finger, n-news will reach me a-about you marrying Meisa a-and h-having a baby along the w-way!”
Jin looks down at Kazuya. He felt a pinch in his heart as he sees Kazuya all broken. God, what have I done? He kneels down in front of Kazuya and hugs the younger tight, attempting to give him comfort.
“I’m sorr-“
“You think your sorry will resolve everything!?” Kazuya yelled as he tries to push Jin away but all of his attempts were futile for he is already weak. He is weak physically, mentally and emotionally.
‘I’m not expecting you to forgive me! B-But I want you to know that I…I really love you Kazuya. I loved you in the past, I love you in the current and I will love you in the future. P-Please b-believe me…” Jin sincerely said as he hugs Kazuya tighter. Kazuya cried even more as the words he longed to hear from the guy he loved so much are now being said to him.
“But I guess everything’s too late already.” Jin added as his tears stained Kazuya’s neck.
Snap! Jin’s right. Everything’s too late already…
“Y-You’re right. Everything’s late already.” Kazuya said bitterly. “TOO late… W-We can’t be t-together anymore…” Kazuya added as he clutches on Jin’s shirt.
I know I need to let go… But, let me have this time to love him. Just this once and I promise that this will be the last. I understand already that he will never be mine again. Jin thought as he pulls Kazuya closer and hugs him tight. “I love you Kazuya…”
It hurts. I can’t let him go. I…I love him. But what can we do? He has his own life. He’s already committed to Meisa and he is carrying a big responsibility as Theia’s father… I guess we should just accept the reality. There is no chance that we will be together. He will…He will never be mine again.
“I love you too…Jin.”