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i really do think too much. i have things pretty wrapped up, but i get myself in these moods, all as a result of my never ending paranoia. i have no clue how to make it stop.. well no i have one prety thorough solution, but its not really in the cards at the moment. so im forced to live my life as a fantasy. [ i hate when people use words like fantasy because it has such a ridiculous connotation] but thats besides the point. all i have to do in the next two years is graduate high school and not become addicted to anything. which is far too easy for me to respond well. i dont do well when im npot under pressure, and there really is no way of any pressure being on me to finish high school, it doesnt matter what grasdes i do get because either way im still going to go to grossmont and im fine with that. because i know where i want my life to go and i dont need a myriad of oppurtunities because i just want to be an english teacher. which ill easily get to accomplish within the next 10 years. i dont need to excel in highschool because it in no way will effect the road im on. for those of you who think im a loser druggie, this is for you. ill see you in 5 years when im cruising to my dream and still enjoying life, with an arsenal of life changing high school experiences to talk about while you struggle through a rigorous course at whatever college you want to attend talking about high school as if it were a prison. life is what you make it and i've made it mine for the taking. so goodluck to you all but take your phony judgements and shove them up your tight asses.