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You know, it's sometimes really difficult to think about being accepting of Claire's desire to go back to Philly for school, while I'm here... I know it's what she really wants, but I also don't understand how it is necesarry to do it that way. She's got it in her head that "normal" is starting in the fall and only taking 4 years to complete at 1 college... I've tried to explain to her that many people enroll in the spring or summer terms, and our therapist has as well. I've also told her that she could take classes here at Del Mar until she's ready to go, and that I would only ask her to stay for the fall semester... All she can do is say "We'll figure it out..." I just don't want the day we "figure it out" to be the day she gets on a plane to go home... I really don't want to deal with not being able to wake up next to her every day, and go to bed next to her every night, and have our only contact with each other be by phone... She talks about how military families go through this lots, and all I can say to that is, "I'm not military and neither are you". I don't want to do this relationship long distance, and the thought of doing so just kicks my ass and breaks my heart. I really don't know what to do anymore. I love her, I trust her, but I'm not comfortable living away from her. r