Late post
This post was going to go up on Saturday. I wrote it whilst I was 'playing' on the live. I was going to write about how brave and wonderful Mew was being coming up to the lives (like she has been at VIP) and not letting small things get in the way of enjoying, and how enjoying was what mattered. Even if that meant having to write a small bit of time aside to edit things.
But after the live, I was asked if I would not attend saturday lives.
That left me feeling a bit bummed. And I've been trying to come up with a sensible solution, but I can't. I fail.
Either I stop going, trash the character kit, and dissappear again (which would annoy me).
Or I keep going, trash any semblance of caring, and fuck the world (which would annoy other people).
Or try and work something out which means neither of us can rack up enough credits to play ever, and are consigned to monstering (which is not amazing).
Or I cry at the refs (which I'm not going to do).
So I'm still wondering what the hell to do. I don't know. And that irks me.
Fortunately I have a few weeks to do it.
There has to be a good outcome, I just have to find it. I don't want to hurt people. I am not annoyed at anyone apart from myself for not being able to find a sensible solution.
In other news, I've made a new userpic (or avatar). Kinda sums up my mood now. And answers a question someone asked me recently.
Bonus points for catching the reference, the significance, and the answer.
Extra bonus points if it answers your question.
But after the live, I was asked if I would not attend saturday lives.
That left me feeling a bit bummed. And I've been trying to come up with a sensible solution, but I can't. I fail.
Either I stop going, trash the character kit, and dissappear again (which would annoy me).
Or I keep going, trash any semblance of caring, and fuck the world (which would annoy other people).
Or try and work something out which means neither of us can rack up enough credits to play ever, and are consigned to monstering (which is not amazing).
Or I cry at the refs (which I'm not going to do).
So I'm still wondering what the hell to do. I don't know. And that irks me.
Fortunately I have a few weeks to do it.
There has to be a good outcome, I just have to find it. I don't want to hurt people. I am not annoyed at anyone apart from myself for not being able to find a sensible solution.
In other news, I've made a new userpic (or avatar). Kinda sums up my mood now. And answers a question someone asked me recently.
Bonus points for catching the reference, the significance, and the answer.
Extra bonus points if it answers your question.