waiting for delivery time
my baby is dropping. i thought it had dropped since it suddenly felt like i was carrying a bowling ball on my cervix, but the midwife says there's still room for it to move down further. i'm trying not to worry about how i'll walk once tadpole's head is finally wedged in between my hips.
the new weight made delivery much more real. it got me running away from work. i'd been planning to stay another week but reality sunk in that this may well be my last chance to be completely self centred and do only what i want to do. at least for a while... things have already changed so much, but the only thing certain is that they will change more than i can possibly imagine.
so here i am, not sleeping, wanting to use this time well even though half my head is already in baby land both excited and worried about how i will manage. it's somehow good to know there are millions of women on the other side of this threshold.
watch out, i'm almost there.
the new weight made delivery much more real. it got me running away from work. i'd been planning to stay another week but reality sunk in that this may well be my last chance to be completely self centred and do only what i want to do. at least for a while... things have already changed so much, but the only thing certain is that they will change more than i can possibly imagine.
so here i am, not sleeping, wanting to use this time well even though half my head is already in baby land both excited and worried about how i will manage. it's somehow good to know there are millions of women on the other side of this threshold.
watch out, i'm almost there.