If I don't make it Someone else will Stand my ground...
Heyy...
I'm on holiday now. And this is so peaceful.
But.. > i always have a " but " <
When the day came which we take our school report, I felt so weird. Me and my old friends always did something this day. Hang out , eat or drink something... But that day I took my school report and come back home again. It hurt me. But to be hurting, don't become me sad anymore... I used it. Like a bad habit.
Soo... Come to real reasons of my sadness...
I couldn't find a new habit to forget what happend. I can't read, I can't paint anymore. And I haven't got any ability about music or something like that.
I just listen to music. Music is the one thing keep me alive. I wish I can play one of all intruments. But I talked that with my parents. They said "NO". Like they always do. But I keep my money and I'm gonna take a course about guitar. I want it so much. Why not be?? I know and believe when I'm in music I feel peaceful more than now.
Sooo this is holiday and my black nailpolish, my ring, my leather bracelets, my neckles and my eyeliner make me happy :D
And I want to change my hair color. A little darken... Maybe black. I hope mom say yes to it! Sis said that she will support me in that way and we put this subject on mom's mind together :)
I love her. She's always with me and always support me. <3
Anyway don't listen to me. Take care. See you.
Happy Joy Days! :)
I'm on holiday now. And this is so peaceful.
But.. > i always have a " but " <
When the day came which we take our school report, I felt so weird. Me and my old friends always did something this day. Hang out , eat or drink something... But that day I took my school report and come back home again. It hurt me. But to be hurting, don't become me sad anymore... I used it. Like a bad habit.
Soo... Come to real reasons of my sadness...
I couldn't find a new habit to forget what happend. I can't read, I can't paint anymore. And I haven't got any ability about music or something like that.
I just listen to music. Music is the one thing keep me alive. I wish I can play one of all intruments. But I talked that with my parents. They said "NO". Like they always do. But I keep my money and I'm gonna take a course about guitar. I want it so much. Why not be?? I know and believe when I'm in music I feel peaceful more than now.
Sooo this is holiday and my black nailpolish, my ring, my leather bracelets, my neckles and my eyeliner make me happy :D
And I want to change my hair color. A little darken... Maybe black. I hope mom say yes to it! Sis said that she will support me in that way and we put this subject on mom's mind together :)
I love her. She's always with me and always support me. <3
Anyway don't listen to me. Take care. See you.
Happy Joy Days! :)