General Anxiety
hey,
since i've been done school my anxiety levels have fluxuated... my CMTO exams were scary, but now they're over... registration was frustrating, but now that's done... applying for work is freaky, but i realize i hold a skill that allows me to work the way i want to work, i determine my own lifestyle... and yet.. i'm freaking... obviously becuase i'm starting my own business.. I am now a registered massage therapist, and i need to market myself as such. My life plan has shifted unexpectedly, and I am worried about it..
my gut has decided to tell me what to do... you see, I have been getting signals from inside (instinct is perking up).. all telling me to choose what i have chosen, renting space to treat and starting my own business... golly... breath..
so anxiety has a way of creeping in. Now, I couldn't sleep last night becuase i was so freaked by it. I don't like that and I am trying to breath to clear my head and my worried heart. it's not working very well.
I'm just searching for some peace of mind... i worry about my friends, and family... and i feel like there is so many things that could go wrong, i am trying to not focus on it.. breath i say.. breath.. it's going to be fine... but waking up with anxiety isn't a good sign... i need to do something different to change my feelings.
I need to snap out of it!! i need someone to just say "in order to be okay you need to snap out of it! you'll work hard and you'll be successful, so just shut the fuck up!!" or maybe something along those lines.. hahahah!
since i've been done school my anxiety levels have fluxuated... my CMTO exams were scary, but now they're over... registration was frustrating, but now that's done... applying for work is freaky, but i realize i hold a skill that allows me to work the way i want to work, i determine my own lifestyle... and yet.. i'm freaking... obviously becuase i'm starting my own business.. I am now a registered massage therapist, and i need to market myself as such. My life plan has shifted unexpectedly, and I am worried about it..
my gut has decided to tell me what to do... you see, I have been getting signals from inside (instinct is perking up).. all telling me to choose what i have chosen, renting space to treat and starting my own business... golly... breath..
so anxiety has a way of creeping in. Now, I couldn't sleep last night becuase i was so freaked by it. I don't like that and I am trying to breath to clear my head and my worried heart. it's not working very well.
I'm just searching for some peace of mind... i worry about my friends, and family... and i feel like there is so many things that could go wrong, i am trying to not focus on it.. breath i say.. breath.. it's going to be fine... but waking up with anxiety isn't a good sign... i need to do something different to change my feelings.
I need to snap out of it!! i need someone to just say "in order to be okay you need to snap out of it! you'll work hard and you'll be successful, so just shut the fuck up!!" or maybe something along those lines.. hahahah!