It's alright to makes mistakes you're only human, inside everybody's hiding something...
I've decided that I wish I could be friends with the people that hang out outside of the coffee shop, they remind me of the friends I have at home. It's so strange but I'm completely different up here then when I'm at home. When I'm home I don't care what people think of me and I don't care what I look like, I just enjoy the time I'm having. Here it's completely different, I'm obsessed with what I look like, and if people are talking about me. I'm at the library right now, and I just feel like every little sorority girl is staring at me and making fun of me. I realized today when I went to class that I was like really dressed up. I did my hair, my make up and I'm wearing a skirt. Besides the wearing a skirt, I would never do that at home. I hardly ever put make up on when I'm there. I just feel so comfortable around everyone. I haven't been over to mike and brians in a loooong time, but that's because no one calls and invites me, I guess I could always call them.
I've also decided that I'm sick of always being the good friend, you know the "just one of the guys" type. I've noticed a lot that a lot of guys that I'm friends with, or even that I have dated in the past, feel as though they can come to me with all of their problems, especially girl problems. Here's the issue, I don't have a lot of girl friends, so I don't really know how to answer a lot of the questions that they ask me. I don't understand girls. I don't even care to be around them(besides a select few) most of the time. I want a boyfriend. I want to cuddle. maybe this is all coming up because we were talking about my brother wedding, or maybe I just want to feel close to someone. I want to kiss someone and feel something, fuck that, I just want to kiss someone.
alright I'm done rambling, time to go take my econ test.
I've also decided that I'm sick of always being the good friend, you know the "just one of the guys" type. I've noticed a lot that a lot of guys that I'm friends with, or even that I have dated in the past, feel as though they can come to me with all of their problems, especially girl problems. Here's the issue, I don't have a lot of girl friends, so I don't really know how to answer a lot of the questions that they ask me. I don't understand girls. I don't even care to be around them(besides a select few) most of the time. I want a boyfriend. I want to cuddle. maybe this is all coming up because we were talking about my brother wedding, or maybe I just want to feel close to someone. I want to kiss someone and feel something, fuck that, I just want to kiss someone.
alright I'm done rambling, time to go take my econ test.