i can't wait to see you in your tux

[joyles_division]

i don't know about this past week the begining of the week was a little rough but turned into a great week by saturday morning things were still good    but...saturday afternoon was rocky and saturday night was horrible yesterday didn't go well at all either but atleast i didn't fight with julia at all during the night we seemed to get along ok and this morning as well things seemed good im sad that i doubt she will see me again till wednesday i have thursday and sunday off so im hoping she will spend the night with me one of those nights both if im super lucky but i shouldn't push my luck
i love julia alot and the main problem for me is i don't want to share her with david but ive been thinking of this alot lately i mean right now julia is in ohio with me not arizona with david and im going to make the best out of her being here and try my best to have a good time and enjoy every second i get to spend with her i love julia more then anything i just need to try to blow it off or push it down when something about david or how much she loves him comes up and just do my best to tough up and deal
julia said she wanted to marry me and when i said  i want to marry her to i meant it i hope we can get everything right how it should be because we are meant for eachother and we will be together

and yet after everything i typed i just read something that made me loose all hope and want to die...i just wish the pain would fucking stop!

talked to julie just now and it seems like we are no longer working on having a realationship i guess i was wrong....