think happy thoughts
wow, i wish i lived in a fairt tale, im always so down and i try to be happy and act happy but as hard as i try i just cant so i sit and cut or cry or just be depressed, it all started with that fucking ass hole mitch, i think all the drugs i was on when i went out with him desolved the happy part of my brain, wow. last night i hung out with boomx2 and stephanie, shes so adorable, when walked around and found these guys, i wanted to makeout with one but i dint have enuff balls to do anything, i just suck like that, but that was alot of fun, and today im gonna go get the new tbs cd and have my bass lesson, then im going to some river, i invited liz but she dosnt swim and i asked matt if he wanted to go but you know, he going over to some hot chicks house, and i invited jenn but she works today, i would do anything for a hit of x right now, i want everything to feel perfect again like it was 3 years ago, but know i had to do drugs and get raped 50millon times, now ensted of rainbows and buterflys its rainclound and tearful eyes, w/e. i just want some one to want to be with me all the time and to hold, but im used to getting the short end of the stick, iv g2g,
erin
erin