..Lie to me..
I've been setting myself up for a fall...but I'm not going to take it. I'm too good for that.
I came home this morning and my dad looked at me and the expression on his face killed me. Then he told me that I'm burning the candle from both ends. I feel like SHIT right now..he's completely right. Just because I CAN do something doesn't mean that I should...I hate it, there were so many things that made me just want to break down, I kept my cool as long as I could, but eventually couldn't hold it in anymore. It was fucked up. But I'm trying to be okay with it since you can't change the past. It'll all work out.
So today is day one, I'm starting over fresh, hello my name is Joy. I don't smoke cigarettes, I rarely drink- if ever, and I'm not going to allow myself to be manipulated.
There are too many things to be happy about in life to live the way I'm living. I'm going out to Stockton today hopefully I'll see Jessica, Theresa, and Kelly, it'll be fun driving around with my girl Jackie, she's awsome. I think I'm going to get my rook on my right ear pierced...I thought about tragus, but I think rook fits me better personally. Shweet. that's what I have to say to that..shweet.
p.s. I've become mildly obsessed with silverchair.
p.p.s. This journal will self destruct in a few days...I won't miss it.
I came home this morning and my dad looked at me and the expression on his face killed me. Then he told me that I'm burning the candle from both ends. I feel like SHIT right now..he's completely right. Just because I CAN do something doesn't mean that I should...I hate it, there were so many things that made me just want to break down, I kept my cool as long as I could, but eventually couldn't hold it in anymore. It was fucked up. But I'm trying to be okay with it since you can't change the past. It'll all work out.
So today is day one, I'm starting over fresh, hello my name is Joy. I don't smoke cigarettes, I rarely drink- if ever, and I'm not going to allow myself to be manipulated.
There are too many things to be happy about in life to live the way I'm living. I'm going out to Stockton today hopefully I'll see Jessica, Theresa, and Kelly, it'll be fun driving around with my girl Jackie, she's awsome. I think I'm going to get my rook on my right ear pierced...I thought about tragus, but I think rook fits me better personally. Shweet. that's what I have to say to that..shweet.
p.s. I've become mildly obsessed with silverchair.
p.p.s. This journal will self destruct in a few days...I won't miss it.