"Okay so sometimes I lie .. I*m weird man"
Alright so I have had so much on my mind since yesterday. Like since last night.. my brain has been asking all these questions. Well for some reason I decided to wake up at late. And I woke up in a terrible mood with my sister*s agitating word ringing through my brain. I wanted to finish Go Ask Alice so I let Dannie swim outside while I laid by the pool reading. She sorta complained the entire time but I was deep into my book & eventually she took a nap on her towel. I made us lunch & showered & stuff. But ugh my head just was throbbing. The dog needed a walk & I promised to weed my grandparents' garden.. so we went over & got to work. But when we were almost done.. my Nana gives me the news that my sister is staying with us tonight. Great. And Mike is sleeping over, too. Or should I say sleeping with my Mom. Anywho . . my grandparents', Dannie, & I went to Swiss Chalet for dinner. I never go there, that sauce is fricken good. Well, when I came home I find that my only sexy item I own is gone. My sister left a message on my bed saying she wore it to work. It*s a turquoise bohemian top that is like the only sexy thing I own.. that would never be worn in a sexy way cause I have no one to look sexy for. BUT she is like double my chest, double my height, double my weight. What the fuck. So my Mom was really pissed. My little sister wouldn*t shut up. I feel fat. And I have a headache. BIKE RIDE TO THE RESCUE. So I decided to bike around my neighborhood then head to my old friends' houses who decide not to be home. But I ride to go past Griffins' house cause he*s another old friend.. and he*s sitting on his porch. I have to mention when I was going past these houses, I didn*t want any of them to be home cause I looked like shit. But of course he*s there & I make him talk to me for a while cause I haven*t seen him in forever. It makes me think that he is one of the three ex-boyfriends I have had that actually gave a damn about me & I never talk to him anyone. The other ex fucking hates me. And the other is my best friend. Oh and the other is a drug addict. So the four I guess. I think Griffin thinks I am a complete loser because picture Sam from Garden State & that*s how weird I was acting. And then picture Andrew Largeman looking spooked & that was Griffin. I shouldn*t be worried because maybe if it was so much like that movie, he wasn*t thinking, "wow I am glad I haven*t seen her in forever." But seeing him made me happy. And happiness is good. Something to keep my mind off the past I guess.