I am a Sun Child
My mood has been so up and down the last few days. I completely slept all day after my weekend extravaganza. But I worked out every morning. I feel like my body may be coming around, but my Aunt just went on vacation so no 545 wake up calls for a week. But I have a 3 month membership so I can go when I want. I wanna start riding my bike up there in the morning, but I definately should get my bike back first from Chris. Last night I slept over Sam*s with Julia, Matt, Ian, & Chris. I had a really good time considering I had a shitty day before hand and almost backed out. I have been incredibly positive for a while but my Mom really brought me down because whenever she hates her life she takes it out on me & tells me it*s my fault. And after being positive for so long, when you get down.. you get down! So I had a good hour long cry and got really negative. It was fricken horrible but I walked the dog and it cooled me off. I think the reason I also took it so hard is because I thought about it and I didn*t have my best friend to talk to. My Nana got so pissed at my Mom for getting mad at me & flipping out & threatening not to drive me to Sam*s that she came over and yelled at her. Well, that made it a war zone. So I completely broke down & called Sam & he made me decided to come & my Mom agreed to drive. But after I cooled off I talked to myself & made myself feel better & I got really positive again. Julia, Matt, & I got lost going there so it took 45 mins. to get there but it was a fun night. Brittany, Suzy, Andrea, Bri, Ian, & Chris were there. We went swimming, hung in the barn, & just did random things. I kinda was getting far away from Brittany as a friend but we had a lot of fun. Suzy was pretty quiet for a while which was surprising.. I almost wanted her to just start screaming or do something outta the ordinary. I hadn*t hung out with Ian in a while so that was also very awesome. We had some nice chats & bonded. Just what I need more male bonding. He even started calling me slugger. *sighs* Justin went on vacation yesterday! After the girls left, we kept swimming, made some music, & just shook our heads to Julia*s ridiculous comments. Oh we also had a pretty awesome bonfire. We listened to Ian tell random stories for a hour. Then they decided to ask Gub to come drink beer with them. But he said no & we just drank Sam*s Squirt haha. "Raise your hand if you don*t believe in God." All raises hands but Julia. "When did Christ die?" "Oh I should know! Wasn*t it 0 AD" We were sorta forced to go to bed by 230 AM. But it wasn*t a big deal. I needed a good night*s sleep. Julia & I woke up the boys by jumping on them at 11 :) We had chocolate cake for breakfast & rocked out in the Farmhouse. It was such a beautiful rainy day. While the rest of them went swimming, I listened to Ian play piano for 30 minutes. It was awesome. We all went home around 130 & I got into a whole new band. The Vines. Props to Ian. When they rock out, they sound like Nirvana. When they go acoustic, they sound like Pink Floyd. I mean what an awesome mixture. I ended up not being able to go to DMB. I hate life. But tomorrow I am gonna wake up & make it a great day because I love Thursdays. And I can*t pout after today. Plus I think I am having a boys night tomorrow.
I forgot to explain my volunteering experience from last Wednesday. I went downtown to this Jewish Family Services building not knowing what we were doing. And I get there & they tell me I am tending to African Refugees who are here to learn how to live in America & we need to help take care of their 9 person families. I was so excited. And the people running it work for Americorp. Which is sweet because I love volunteering organizations. Well, the people put me in charge & I just figured out what we were doing so I had to talk to these people & explain what was going on. It was awkward but I felt big & cool. When the families arrived, we sorta greeted with them & gave them food & helped the kids get things. Then when the meeting began, all the kids had to be gathered to the back to play with us. So about 30 kids from the ages 1 to 18 were there with us & we had to keep them occupied. And most didn*t know English or had ever seen half the things they were seeing. The kids just had nothing. The families had nothing. It was terrible depressing but the kids spirits were so inspiring. I let lots of the kids listen to my iPod. They LOVED it. I experimented with all sorts of music. Bob Marley, Jimi, DMB, Outkast, Postal Service, Jack Johnson, Ben Harper, & some other stuff. They were dnacing & stuff. So adorable. A lot of the children were very shy, but by the time I was leaving they were running & giving me high fives & hugs. I emailed the woman when I got home & said I would love to donate lots of things to these children & their families. And she said I could bring in anything for these people & at the end of the summer I could have her job. Haha she thinks I am in college. But I really want her job! But my Aunt went out & bought tons of toys & stuff for the kids & she is sending it up for the next workshop & I am bringing a bunch of donations in. I love working with these people. It makes you feel so amazing & the other volunteers were awesome. I love peaceful thinking.