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[joydivision939]

ok everybody is reminsicing about their years now. i hated this year pretty much. Absoluetly nothing happened this year. except for bad shit. the beginning of last year was a hopeful one, hopeful that i would make new friends and new things would happen. I've made a couple of new friends but i dont really try very hard to keep the relationships going. I'm basically in the same place i was last year. 2003 was the year of me being a dumbass and getting alot of crushes. Thankfully, i didn't get as many this year. I know exactly why that is. years really mean nothing to me. this year was plagued by darkness. Darkness that i created after failures. My summer was ok, but very lonely at times. I thought at this time last year i'd still be in a band. THat isn't so. If the band had survived i think i would be ok right now. this year was me turning myself into a introspective guarded loner. It worked. anyway new years and shit like that doesnt even have signficincance. its just another day. everyday is the same pretty much.
ok fuck it im done talking about the year.

Now to talk about better things. When i was in borrego the past few days i read alot of the fellowship of the ring. I read it in 9th grade and its a totally different read than it was 3 years ago. I guess that means i have advanced as a reader. Ive had alot of weird dreams lately. last nights dream was about winter formal or something. i don't even want to go to it and who the hell would ask me. and i hate dances. and its way expensive. i hate wearing a tux.