MES PREMIERES. Pt.2. Chapter Three.
Title : Mes premières.
Pairing : Jongkey. implied!Onny (?)
Genre : AU. Romance. Mpreg.
Rating : PG-13 for now.
Disclaim : Jjong belongs to Key and Bummie belongs to Jonghyun.
Summary : Jonghyun may be a greek god. That doesn't means he is fearless of what life can bring to him. And lets face it, life plus Kim Kibum may be a little over his usual phobia.
A/N : Yes, I lied. I said Tuesday-Wednesday midnight. Little writer's block. I beat myself to write this, compensate me.
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Three.
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« You are pregnant. »
It has been so long. How long ? Four months.
Four months that Kibum had know he was pregnant and it took him a week to decide that he would keep the baby. His baby.
Now, no. No, men don't get pregnant. As the doctor has said, the only man that got pregnant was a woman that changed sex, and then decided to get pregnant. Weird picture but yes, it was about it.
So no, it was not normal for Kibum to be pregnant. Okey it had all the scientific explanation, and eventually in his case it was possible. Possible, mixed in the odd coincidence of the energy drink and having a full four hours straight amazing sex with Jonghyun, extra-ordinary family tree, and yes, Kibum was now pregnant.
It had been very odd, asking weird questions to his parents, and then ending up telling them he was pregnant. But eventually, they did not kick him out. It was not his fault if that was running in the family and he happenned to be the first gay of the Kim line.
The hardest was Jonghyun. He had to leave Jonghyun. He had to.
He still loved him then, and to say the truth, he still loves him. And forever will, most likely. But he had to. Even if now he would cry himself to sleep every single night, and that had nothing to do with the overdose of female hormones running in his system. He had to.
Thing is. Jonghyun was scared stiff of commitment. Responsabilities, if you pushed further.
The blonde must think he didn't know, but he was the love of his life. How could he not notice ? How could he not see the flash of fear passing through Jjong's eyes whenever he would tell him to accept this job, or subscribe for that thing. Don't even think of when they would talk about adopting, or any mariage allusion. Even having a pet was like a huge thing.
He had been suspiscious but did not say anything. That day Byulhee's parents announced they were married and were having a child, everything was confirmed to him. But everytime he tried to talk of it with Jonghyun, he acted as if nothing was wrong. And Kibum would turn it as if he was asking somehting else. He did not want the little progress he had made to crash to nothing, when Jonghyun would find why he was asking all of those.
So he did as if nothing. And really, he loved Jonghyun too much for that to bother him.
Okay, it would be better if Jonghyun just accepted one of those jobs, they both knew would make him happy. It would be better, if he had not lose 5% of his most important orders this year because Jonghyun would forget to give him a message. Better if Jonghyun would pay the flat's elec. bill. 'cause coming back home was sometimes only possible because the work he had to do could be done via internet. And having to go to Onew hyung's house to work because there was no light-electricity-wifi at home, with Byulhee coming near him every now and then, was not the best path to focus-land.
Having to cope with Jonghyun's jealous self everytime he would come back from overseas, looking 'secretly' in his luggages in search of god knows what that could compromise him and an 'imaginary' affair. Having to deal with Jonghyun being carefree, picking fights everytime he could just to come back and making up with sex. Then going back to work in some country, no phone calls, no messages, no nothing.
It was hard, things would be better if Jonghyun was a bit - much more - cooperative with ... everything. It was hard but he was doing well with swallowing it all. Because it was the price to pay, after this year, his brand would be big enough for him to stay put in one place and order people around to do the overseas activities for him. Only seven months left and all would be back to normal. He could stay and take care of Jonghyun.
But this just had to happen. He just had to be ... pregnant.
Now not only Jonghyun would be like that, but he would have a good reason to even leave him. And if by some miracle he did not left him, Kibum would be a burden for him.
Jonghyun didn't dare have a pet, a child would do no better. Really. It was just bound to be. Or more like they were just bound not to be.
He had thought this over and over and over during that one week he had before coming back from Japan. And he was positive, he had to let Jonghyun go. He could already see it, that Jonghyun was not as happy as he used to when they first were together. He would not touch him the same. The kisses didn't meant the same things anymore. Their love was ... fading.
Most because they were not really around each other anymore. Then because when they were they would either be fighting or doing rough sex before not seeing each other for a month or so. And last, Key just knew it was eating Jonghyun alive not be able to be part of his 'life' and not be able to grant him his top two wishes : children and mariage.
Knowing Jonghyun, he did not think Kibum was cheating because he did not trust him anymore. He probably was thinking that he himself was not able to make Kibum happy, so what would refrein his one and only princess to go and found a better prince ?
Yes, Jonghyun was dumber than dumb, thinking things like that.
And he better let him go now, than trap him with paternity responsabilities. He could not understand women who did that to men. When the man wanted to leave them, they would say they were pregnant. What's the use raising a child in a house where he was the only link between a one-sided love relation ? Or a father that hated his mother, and hated his own life because of that one child ? 'Would never understand'.
It was better letting Jonghyun go. It was better, his gGod would find a goddess and someday forget about him, and live happily. (A/N : you dumber than dummy too Bummie. )
At least Kibum would have a little Jonghyun or a little girl version of Jjong to enlighten his life. And in the end everyone would be happy. As happy as they could get.
He just knew he was starting another life, a hard life. It's true that he had never really been attracted to any other man than Jonghyun, but that still made him gay somewhere. So, gay. Having a child, who would literally have no mother than him. That would sure bring some little problems every other day. And asking Jonghyun to accept this child, would be like his worst nightmare Kibum thought.
Jonghyun was afraid that commitment Could bring problems later. But this commitment Will bring life-long problems. It's liketaking a risk and a game, knowing that no matter what you loose; What's the point ? How d'you expect Kibum to do this to him !? He loved him enough to take all the burden and leave him have a better life without the baby and him.
"Yes, this is for the best."
"Deh !?"
"Ah, aniyo Taemin-ah."
Yes, Taemin was here. As soon as he had told his son and Amber that he was no more with Jonghyun, they all freaked out.
Taemin was like a year far from the end of his dancing tour but he had quit it to come and stay with him. Sensing 'something was really wrong' as he had tell him when leaving the airport for Kibum's parents' house. Yes, he came back to Umma-Appa in this time of crisis.
He was so proud of what Taemin had become. So independent. Leaving his dream and travelling all around the world. Their schedules would sometimes collide and he could see his son - first son ? - on stage. Sweating, poping and being the fierciest and happiest one shining there under the spotlights.
So proud.
Even if all the story with Minho was another bother to discuss later. Minho not even being the problem. Kibum would have liked it to be so, so he could at least yell at him and the matter would have been solved like, Snap.
Amber. His Boo was now CEO of a fashion magazine. Hard to believe ? Hm. If he said Men fashion magazine ? ' Ahh, makes more sense now neh !? '
But she was doing pretty well. She was after all, having fashion as her major when they were still students. Speaking of love affairs, really, for once, Key just didn't know. Like ... Blank.
She had sometime been dating Victoria noona, but the older girl finaly got married to the 'Nickhun-guy' as Amber would call him. Since then, Kibum did not really know. They had been pretty busy with life. So even if Amber got no one, it wouldn't be surprising. Seeing how she had rose her magazine from the cellar to being a skyscraper now.
They may have been born in rich families, but their fathers thought otherwise. And for Kibum, not only his father. But in the Almighty Kim family, every one built his fortune alone.
Almeoni's mother was born in a rich family and had just been a " spoiled brat " as Almeoni had told him. Thus she decided she would be otherwise. Spending money she had earned herself and " living the life my heart dicted me to " . Now with him being pregnant, he understood fully where that came from.
So Almeoni was now a very well known architect. She was known overseas too, but had decided to design under a nickname. People even thought she was a man.
"It's better if you want to have a quiet life. I take jobs that seems interesting to me, and I am well paid for my good work. Then I invest in this or that society and my money just keeps growing. Your grandmother is just too smart to be know by the world /wink. "
When his mother was born, Almeoni paid all her school fees until she graduated and then let her herself to do something with her life. Even when it was hard and that she just wanted to give up, Almeoni did not help her.
"That is how you raise a child my Key, you don't feed him honey until he gets diabetes and dies someday. You don't give him all he wants and walks around like he owns the world, while if you are not there to catch him he could just crumble into nothing. You have to give him bitter things too, and let him fall, for him to know how life is, and that nothing comes without working for it. He has to become strong by himself, you can only lend your shoulder for him to cry and overcome it, stronger."
His mother went from down the ladder to being Samsung's Chief Financial Officer. Means she can negociate what her salary is like. We're talking about big amount of money here. His father is an Automotive Designer Engineer for Rolls.
Kibum and Amber too had to search life by their own. Their parents only provided them until they gradutated, and after the only thing left was the flat they lived in. Kibum had the luck to know what he wanted to do pretty fast. So he had benefit both his Almeoni's and parent's connection to enter the Fashion world before even entering their school.
It didn't end up 'easy' for him, but it sure was easier. And it's not like he had to learn fashion from someone else. He created his own style. And that was enough talent to be someone in that world. You then have to be tough, know how to handle business and how make yourself needed.
We're talking about Kim Kibum here. Piece of cake. And with an Almeoni that managed trade actions, a CFO-mother. Where do you think he was going ? To the top of course.
Amber had it harder than him. Being a woman in a men's world was never easy. But it's Amber we're talking about. She could be quite scary sometimes, and manhandle people like only he knew his Almeoni could. And now her magazine was starting to get pretty known in Korea.
Minho was taking after his father's company, and that was with he actually wanted, and had already known, he would do. Going to an art school like them, was only like ... ' a hobby ? ' for him. Business knowledge, he had them already. Only thing to do was wait until his father introduced him in the company. And in less than eight years, Kibum was sure he would be the new CEO of Choi Industries.
Onew was climbing the laders one by one and soon enough he would be some kind of high-ranked employee too. Sunny prefered staying a teacher. She was a music teacher and she was perfectly okay with just staying there. She would often say she had to have time to properly raise her baby girl anyway, so~.
Only one that was at the same stage where he had been when he had graduated was, Kim Jonghyun. And it's not even as if he did not have any opportunities. But Gosh it has already been more than three years since then. What was he planing to do ?
Kibum had no answer to that. But it was not with a baby on top that Jonghyun would fear less commitment, that was for sure.
He was glad that Taemin took all that time to stay with him, even if it made him feel guilty sometimes. It helped a lot, and being six months pregnant was really, really not and easy way to live a life.
He could not bend without letting a small cry, his back hurting. Aparently it was the time when the baby would be needing more and more nutriments to grow well, and he would begin to move more. He also was doing many weird, weirdly strange dreams. Dreaming of all your family members with animal heads ? Yes, weird.
He had to have practice contractions. Like really ? He was going to have a ceasearean, what is the use in contractions ? They would anesthetize him and then extract the baby. Aish. Peeing every hour, when it was starting to be an entire trip just to walk.
But it was better now, because during the second trimester it had been morning sickness, nausea and vomit fits, still. Dizziness, fatigue, and he got a bit more depressive too.
Now he was used to the baby's quickening, used to his belly being stretched. When he had woken one morning, looking to it during the second trimester - the fourth month ? - he had freaked out a bit. More than that,
"OH MY GOD WHAT IS THIS ?"
Yes, stretch marks. It had been the beginning of the war between him and his perfect body stretching like it wanted to challenge until where it could go.
"Not gonna leave marks you hear me !? I will already have a hard time with the ceasearean's scar, I will Not have other sequels. On my dead body before it happens !"
What was a big change now was, ... how to put it, Hornyness ?
Are all pregnant women feeling that horny when pregnant ? A mere hug or a hand on his bag would lead him to weird thoughts. And no, he had never been attracted to his Taebaby, ' what the hell !? !! '
Well, he only had his hand. And even if it felt weird sensing your orgasm build with a baby inside your belly, he really had no other way around. And maybe the baby quicking fiercier afterhand was a ... good thing ? Ugh, shrug. He never thought he would have to deal with these sort of things one day.
"Umma ?"
"Uh, Deh Taebaby ?"
"Hmm, there's ... well ... Hm-"
"What is it Taem', just tell me."
"Really, I ... it's not me okay ?"
"What's with that face of yours ? Did you droped mango juice on one of my portfolios again ? You know I told you not to go in my of-"
"No, no no no I did not. There's ... Hm ..."
"Taaaaaem ..?" he said in a little threathening just-tell-me-now-and-maybe-you'll-be-60%-safe tone. He just wanted to go back to sleep. He had been feeling good for once, and thus he went working in his office near his room. He had almost dozed off when Taemin disturbed him.
"I swear, it's not me. Your mother said he could come. She even said he must come, and I wanted to warn you bu-"
"He ? Who he ?"
"Hi Bummie princess." O.Mai.Greek.God!
"J-jo *gasp* Jong-hyun ?" he finaly whispered, seing a head pop from behind Taemin.
"Hey baby. Missed me much ?"
Fuck.
||| This, will be explained in the next chapter. Aigoo, I feel betrayed with the number of words. It was hell writing thing. And I just realised in part 1, it feels more ... serious. Like the fic is more on serious matters now. Well they had 'matured' and aren't students anymore but ... you get my point ? It felt like writing Skins sometimes lol. So, what you htingking ? I am not proud of this /: .
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