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[joycake]

i drove for hours and slept in the back of my car,
nearly got cited for indecent exposure by the ocean. giggled.
the amount of steam that was blown off on that brief trip
is a fucking speck of dust compared to what i'm holding.

chopping and swallowing fruits daily,
leaking tears on the prettiest highways
loving like a woman and fucking like an animal
smoking cigarettes and dreaming of opiates...
a constant herd of screaming elephants in my head
getting so fucking loud.

i give awful advice:
put up a wall. walk in cold. don't let them touch you.
in other words, disconnect so you can float alone
like an island in the ocean
like a forgotten toy at the bottom of a well
like me.