I realized something
Ok, we've all had our crappy birthdays and all that jazz... Well I never said anything about mine in this journal or my paper journal.
It was CRAP, everyone in Warroad that I wanted to hang out with was working or had other plans. It SUCKED! Eh oh well no big. Than it turned out my mom started having reactions to her blood... YEAH perfect timing if I say so myself. So I went to school feeling great towards, God, people in general. I hated life I just wanted to curl up in a ball and say screw the world.
We planned a bon fire at Shaun's house a long time before that for the Thursday after my birthday. Katie wanted to make my birthday celebration part of the deal. I had fun don't get me wrong but I was so anti-social I kicked myself for it later. I would have had so much more fun if I would have just forgotten about myself and had SOME fun. But no, I got cynical about Canadians once again when a girl that I met there started arguing with me that Warroad was part of Canada... Riiiight and I have a Canadian passport to prove that.... SSSSUUuuure... I understand why she thought that but to argue with me? Eh oh well why do I care where she thinks I live?
I know parts of this is a month late and other parts they aren't a month late YET lol but I figured better late than never.
So yeah, last night at care group I realized I still feel really dry and I take full responsibility for that... I haven't been seeking God like I should be. I really haven't. I'm feeling good emotionally but I feel dry at the same time in my spirit...
It was CRAP, everyone in Warroad that I wanted to hang out with was working or had other plans. It SUCKED! Eh oh well no big. Than it turned out my mom started having reactions to her blood... YEAH perfect timing if I say so myself. So I went to school feeling great towards, God, people in general. I hated life I just wanted to curl up in a ball and say screw the world.
We planned a bon fire at Shaun's house a long time before that for the Thursday after my birthday. Katie wanted to make my birthday celebration part of the deal. I had fun don't get me wrong but I was so anti-social I kicked myself for it later. I would have had so much more fun if I would have just forgotten about myself and had SOME fun. But no, I got cynical about Canadians once again when a girl that I met there started arguing with me that Warroad was part of Canada... Riiiight and I have a Canadian passport to prove that.... SSSSUUuuure... I understand why she thought that but to argue with me? Eh oh well why do I care where she thinks I live?
I know parts of this is a month late and other parts they aren't a month late YET lol but I figured better late than never.
So yeah, last night at care group I realized I still feel really dry and I take full responsibility for that... I haven't been seeking God like I should be. I really haven't. I'm feeling good emotionally but I feel dry at the same time in my spirit...