you'll never know

[joybaby1234]

the crisp air on my skin makes me feel so clean
when i run outside there's a light in your room
and i'll never admit how i feel so far just looking

a red tie in my hair, all rosey-eyed
you just knew me
the six seconds of laughter of every line always threw me

and the leaves fall down
and the world is silent
and i want to find myself

i'm sorry i never told you
this is it, this is what i want
and i'm sorry you'll never know
i was just afraid if told you so
you would let me go

eight hours more til the evening starts
you decide if it rains we should stay in
your stupid shirt lines the hallways out to dry
i forgot how you love when i can't win

and the rain falls down
and you move in closer
and i want to find myself

i'm sorry i never told you
this is it, this is what i want
and i'm sorry you'll never know

i was just afraid if i told you so
you would let me go

and i can't, but i wish
that you would look inside me
til it burns and i feel everything
and i want, and i die
don't really know the reason why i push you away

the gravel touches my feet, i'm alone again
much safer
walking home in the dark, just another fall
like before

and my mind shuts down as i turn the corner
and without a sound til i reach my room

i'm sorry i never told you
this is it, this is what i want
and i'm sorry you'll never know

i was just afraid if i told you so
you would let me go

copyright, christy altomare