random update
i'm leaving here in a few hours to move back to cincinnati. and as much as i can't wait and am excited to be back in clifton, i can't shake off the feeling that i'll miss this old place too. I KNOW, i've complained all summer about being useless here and having less than a few friends, i know, but i've pulled a classic "joy" and am getting extremely sad and nostalgic at the end of my stay here. aside from the crappy job at macy's and lack of friends here, i do have friends and i have an amazing family. i also began to realize how great this city actually is. i just need to learn how to live in the moment.
but anyway, my sister's cast party/mother's birthday party was last night and i had a really wonderful last night with everyone. there are so many people in the cast that i want to keep in touch with. some of them are pretty amazing. (!!!!) it was really nice seeing most of my family again too. especially here in this house.
...so i'm thinking, it's so strange the thing that happened with meg. i really felt like i had lost her as a friend and that just can't happen. i'm grateful i realized all this before we grew extremely distant, but at the same time i hate that she's all the way in cali. i want to really make amends with her and be there for, but she's gone. i miss her so much already. her leaving set off all of these other thousands of thoughts in my head, and it's made me appreciate home even more. perfect timing, right? goodbye, louisville. agh.
speaking of losing people, this thing with drew is just...off into oblivion. i don't even want to talk about it.
what i need to do now is focus on moving back to cincinnati and say my goodbyes here. blah.