im not in love
but im full of love
i have thoroughly enjoyed getting ready for this Valentines day. i feel it has the potential of being more then just a hallmark holiday. like, for example, it can be about love. who would have thought! And yes, i too subscribe to the belief that love should be celebrated everyday and not out of obligation of a cheesy holiday such as valentines day. but i also believe...why not fucking enjoy it. i mean chocolate is damn good. and hugs and kisses are wonderful. i think everyone should stop bitching about not having a significant other to be all mushy with on this day and blah blah blah. get over it! why not take the time to share it with the people in your life who love you like your family and friends? sure youre not in love...fine...but you do have love.
i had a great time going valentine card shopping. i loved writing and addressing them all. i loved thinking about the recipients reactions and how it would make them feel.
<3
on a totally different topic
i havent been feeling special lately.
i have been feeling un-special
average
not unique
not worthy of being listened to
like i have nothing special to say
as though i am thoroughly and completely not special
this is strange because i more often then not am able to recognize that i am a special person. not in a conceited way or anything like that, but in a self affirmed way. i have been feeling rather vacant of whatever it is that made me feel special, or at least be aware of my specialness.
i was laying on my bed tonight and talking to milo as he slept and purred in my arms
i told milo that i dont feel special
and then, looking at him so peaceful and content i realized that i am special to him
simply because im his
i should spend more time with him
he feels...pure
...impermanence...
i spent sunday and monday with bryce. it was absolutely wonderful and very needed. i was so pleased to see him. it is always hard to hear that people you love and care about are having trouble or going through rough times. despite all of that (if he even considers it "rough times") he is doing well. i was relieved to hear how happy he is. i wish him all of the happiness in the world. i always enjoy his company and sense of humor.
he is a good guy, that bryce.
o yes he is.
Dear Everyone,
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
Love, Me
i have thoroughly enjoyed getting ready for this Valentines day. i feel it has the potential of being more then just a hallmark holiday. like, for example, it can be about love. who would have thought! And yes, i too subscribe to the belief that love should be celebrated everyday and not out of obligation of a cheesy holiday such as valentines day. but i also believe...why not fucking enjoy it. i mean chocolate is damn good. and hugs and kisses are wonderful. i think everyone should stop bitching about not having a significant other to be all mushy with on this day and blah blah blah. get over it! why not take the time to share it with the people in your life who love you like your family and friends? sure youre not in love...fine...but you do have love.
i had a great time going valentine card shopping. i loved writing and addressing them all. i loved thinking about the recipients reactions and how it would make them feel.
<3
on a totally different topic
i havent been feeling special lately.
i have been feeling un-special
average
not unique
not worthy of being listened to
like i have nothing special to say
as though i am thoroughly and completely not special
this is strange because i more often then not am able to recognize that i am a special person. not in a conceited way or anything like that, but in a self affirmed way. i have been feeling rather vacant of whatever it is that made me feel special, or at least be aware of my specialness.
i was laying on my bed tonight and talking to milo as he slept and purred in my arms
i told milo that i dont feel special
and then, looking at him so peaceful and content i realized that i am special to him
simply because im his
i should spend more time with him
he feels...pure
...impermanence...
i spent sunday and monday with bryce. it was absolutely wonderful and very needed. i was so pleased to see him. it is always hard to hear that people you love and care about are having trouble or going through rough times. despite all of that (if he even considers it "rough times") he is doing well. i was relieved to hear how happy he is. i wish him all of the happiness in the world. i always enjoy his company and sense of humor.
he is a good guy, that bryce.
o yes he is.
Dear Everyone,
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
Love, Me