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Everyone has a past. We all know, well, it's the past. Yeah, it helped shape who we are now and it may very well be a part of us, but IT is not US. It's not who we are NOW. If I can know this about my past and be fine with it, why do I search in others pasts? Why do I look for things I KNOW will hurt me? If you search for pain, you WILL find it. I don't know why I do it. Maybe one day I will stop questioning.
I guess my main problem is that I am completely open and honest about my past, present, wants, dreams, everything. I'm a talker. We all know this. I know not everyone is like me, but I don't understand why you WOULDN'T share your past. To me, it feels like you are hiding something. Maybe your past ISN'T completely in the past. That's what gets to me.
This is all just rambling. I just sort of wish I could read everyone's life story before I get involved. I wish I could know what's true and what's fabricated or just exaggerated. I know everyone embellishes for the art of story telling, but I want the facts before I invest in a friendship.
I have had too many friendships end due to fabrications of stories. Frankly, I can't handle being lied to. I've also had them end due to my excessive nosiness and need to hurt myself. Is there a way to make me less of a busybody? if not, is there a way to just get the whole story up front? I just don't want to have to compete with someone from the past. I just want to be the present. I'm not even asking for the future.
I guess my main problem is that I am completely open and honest about my past, present, wants, dreams, everything. I'm a talker. We all know this. I know not everyone is like me, but I don't understand why you WOULDN'T share your past. To me, it feels like you are hiding something. Maybe your past ISN'T completely in the past. That's what gets to me.
This is all just rambling. I just sort of wish I could read everyone's life story before I get involved. I wish I could know what's true and what's fabricated or just exaggerated. I know everyone embellishes for the art of story telling, but I want the facts before I invest in a friendship.
I have had too many friendships end due to fabrications of stories. Frankly, I can't handle being lied to. I've also had them end due to my excessive nosiness and need to hurt myself. Is there a way to make me less of a busybody? if not, is there a way to just get the whole story up front? I just don't want to have to compete with someone from the past. I just want to be the present. I'm not even asking for the future.