The evils that men do
First off, why is the pensive face smiling? It's sad thoughtfulness, not happy. Stupid smilies.
I don't get it sometimes. I don't understand why people do the actions that they do and I don't think I ever will. You see somebody everyday for three months, talk to them a good amount and you think you get a pretty good idea of who this person is. That's until they get alchohol in them.
Apparently, it'll turn a nice guy with some slight anger issues into a guy that that pulls the pants off of a drunken girl on the middle of the living room floor with fifteen people in it. At least that's one story. The other's that he was just trying to dance with her and was groping her. The second isn't as bad considering the effects massive amounts of alchohol have on people's sexual desires. He was too drunk to know that her overly flirtatious attitude was just flirting and nothing else, she was way too drunk too kno that she shouldn't be teasing people who aren't in a stable mind. The wierd part of every story I have heard about it: nobody ever said that she wasn't for it or if she was for it. Which would make the second seem more viable, considering I was trying to go to sleep at the time when all of this was happening and it wasn't loud enough to make me notice anything. I would assume somebody getting their pants forcibly taken off would scream; there was no screaming. Logically, I am inclined to take the second story. But, my gut goes towards the first. I do not know why.
Regardless of which is true, what happened afterwards troubles me somewhat. Apparently another of the party people was trying to hook up with the girl, he was getting incredibly upset and he was acting like he was going to fight Luther. This caused some problems among the guests that ended with Luther being asked to leave the house, he went outside ,along with Orbach and Allen, for a cigarette. He refused to leave. Apparently, Orbach said he could stay outside on the front porch. Orbach said he could not come back in though, Orbach then locked the doors of the house. After about twenty minutes or so, (I don't have a good measurement of the time, but that's what I can guess) he started banging on doors. Allen and Orbach went and decided to take him to leave the house, he was convinced to get in Orbach's car and was going to be taken home. In the car, he said something about not having any place to go. Eventually, Orbach and Allen decided to drop him off downtown, they let him have a coat and left.
The next day he didn't come into work. I had heard about what happened the day before that morning and was a bit sketched out at the whole thing, as I had only heard story one. He called up at seom point and siad he was somewhere out of town adn had no clue where he was or how he got there. My supervisor wasn't happy and showed little pity, as Luther wasn't the greatest of workers. He got work done, but it was almost always sloppy, which makes her have to work a lot more in keeping him in line. Having a bad story for him not coming into to work, she called up the manager and he said to fire him. It is unknown if that has happened or not, but it is highly probable.
Luther's a nice guy, but he definitely had a troubled past, which is what I think makes me towards the first. I know at some point in time he did heavy drugs, I also know he used to sell drugs, I also know he was wanted by the police for something and was never caught. The status of his drugs problems now is unknown. He has said he doesn't sell or do any, but it was said in a way that sounded somewhat nervous and a bit hard to believe. The nervousness could have been because of a bad memory the idea brings up, or from a lie. Add to this the fact he said he wasn't going to drink that night. It's possible he had the intention not to, but not the will power. But, Luther seemed to be trying to turn his life around. He talked about wanting to go to college and get an Associates in auto repair or something(I don't remember what exactly it was, but it was car related.) He was getting his own place, and although he might not have been teh best at what he did, he tried really hard to do it.
He has some troubles at his home, or what I think was his home. He lived with this grandmother and Uncle, his uncle sounds like an asshole from the descriptions I have heard (His Uncle through a load of his laundry out of their running car's window because he and Luther were arguing). It is possible that him having nowhere to go, is from him arguing with his uncle and being kicked out of his house. He left his coat at the house and from the pockets of it, it looked possible that he had no house at the time.
I think it's the troubled past that makes me hesitant to rule out the first story. People with harder lives learn to react to things in harsher manners and many things that other people would not do, they wouldn't feel bad in. There may be slight inhibitions, but not as much as in people who have easier lives. Luther definately had a hard life, especially if he was just kicked out of his Grandmother's house. It's not out of the question that a very drunk Luther would try to relieve some tension and stress by having sex. Add the alchohol to that and I could see an inhibition being removed and a horrible sense of logic taking over.
But, I trust Luther. He hasn't done anything to lose my trust unless he did do story one. I have loaned him money and he has always paid me back (up to $75, much of which he took out from the ATM on his own after I gave him my PIN. I know he removed the correct amount because he brought me the receipt) and he's been a nice guy to me. Plus, during drunk talk, he talked about how much he likes me as a friend and thanked me for inviting him to the party and all. Most of the people at the party I knew well liked him (Until the strange event happened), so it's not just me.
Regardless of whether or not he did what he might have done or not, I still feel guilty for putting him in the situation and possibly causing a person with no money and possibly no home, to be fired from his job from the situation he was put in. I also feel that if I had not been going to sleep, I could have talked to him and clmed things down between the people, because I know them both and both respect me. I could have stopped it, I should have thought it out more, but I didn't.
This was bugging me a lot all of yesterday, when Isaac sits down next to me on the couch, gets really quiet for a while and then tells me that Kyle's brother was stabbed to death. I don't know much more about that, except that it happened in Florida, Kyle's not doing well, Kyle's going to be in Florida for a few days, apparently Kyle's brother died trying to stop two guys from fighting at a club, and that the whole thing is fucked up. I only met Kyle's brother once; he was an incredibly nice person. It's just fucked up. That's all I can think to say about it.
It does seem to come all at once doesn't it? It'd be too easy if it were otherwise. So worthless, so stupid. I really don't feel like going to class right now, but I've missed too much already.
I don't get it sometimes. I don't understand why people do the actions that they do and I don't think I ever will. You see somebody everyday for three months, talk to them a good amount and you think you get a pretty good idea of who this person is. That's until they get alchohol in them.
Apparently, it'll turn a nice guy with some slight anger issues into a guy that that pulls the pants off of a drunken girl on the middle of the living room floor with fifteen people in it. At least that's one story. The other's that he was just trying to dance with her and was groping her. The second isn't as bad considering the effects massive amounts of alchohol have on people's sexual desires. He was too drunk to know that her overly flirtatious attitude was just flirting and nothing else, she was way too drunk too kno that she shouldn't be teasing people who aren't in a stable mind. The wierd part of every story I have heard about it: nobody ever said that she wasn't for it or if she was for it. Which would make the second seem more viable, considering I was trying to go to sleep at the time when all of this was happening and it wasn't loud enough to make me notice anything. I would assume somebody getting their pants forcibly taken off would scream; there was no screaming. Logically, I am inclined to take the second story. But, my gut goes towards the first. I do not know why.
Regardless of which is true, what happened afterwards troubles me somewhat. Apparently another of the party people was trying to hook up with the girl, he was getting incredibly upset and he was acting like he was going to fight Luther. This caused some problems among the guests that ended with Luther being asked to leave the house, he went outside ,along with Orbach and Allen, for a cigarette. He refused to leave. Apparently, Orbach said he could stay outside on the front porch. Orbach said he could not come back in though, Orbach then locked the doors of the house. After about twenty minutes or so, (I don't have a good measurement of the time, but that's what I can guess) he started banging on doors. Allen and Orbach went and decided to take him to leave the house, he was convinced to get in Orbach's car and was going to be taken home. In the car, he said something about not having any place to go. Eventually, Orbach and Allen decided to drop him off downtown, they let him have a coat and left.
The next day he didn't come into work. I had heard about what happened the day before that morning and was a bit sketched out at the whole thing, as I had only heard story one. He called up at seom point and siad he was somewhere out of town adn had no clue where he was or how he got there. My supervisor wasn't happy and showed little pity, as Luther wasn't the greatest of workers. He got work done, but it was almost always sloppy, which makes her have to work a lot more in keeping him in line. Having a bad story for him not coming into to work, she called up the manager and he said to fire him. It is unknown if that has happened or not, but it is highly probable.
Luther's a nice guy, but he definitely had a troubled past, which is what I think makes me towards the first. I know at some point in time he did heavy drugs, I also know he used to sell drugs, I also know he was wanted by the police for something and was never caught. The status of his drugs problems now is unknown. He has said he doesn't sell or do any, but it was said in a way that sounded somewhat nervous and a bit hard to believe. The nervousness could have been because of a bad memory the idea brings up, or from a lie. Add to this the fact he said he wasn't going to drink that night. It's possible he had the intention not to, but not the will power. But, Luther seemed to be trying to turn his life around. He talked about wanting to go to college and get an Associates in auto repair or something(I don't remember what exactly it was, but it was car related.) He was getting his own place, and although he might not have been teh best at what he did, he tried really hard to do it.
He has some troubles at his home, or what I think was his home. He lived with this grandmother and Uncle, his uncle sounds like an asshole from the descriptions I have heard (His Uncle through a load of his laundry out of their running car's window because he and Luther were arguing). It is possible that him having nowhere to go, is from him arguing with his uncle and being kicked out of his house. He left his coat at the house and from the pockets of it, it looked possible that he had no house at the time.
I think it's the troubled past that makes me hesitant to rule out the first story. People with harder lives learn to react to things in harsher manners and many things that other people would not do, they wouldn't feel bad in. There may be slight inhibitions, but not as much as in people who have easier lives. Luther definately had a hard life, especially if he was just kicked out of his Grandmother's house. It's not out of the question that a very drunk Luther would try to relieve some tension and stress by having sex. Add the alchohol to that and I could see an inhibition being removed and a horrible sense of logic taking over.
But, I trust Luther. He hasn't done anything to lose my trust unless he did do story one. I have loaned him money and he has always paid me back (up to $75, much of which he took out from the ATM on his own after I gave him my PIN. I know he removed the correct amount because he brought me the receipt) and he's been a nice guy to me. Plus, during drunk talk, he talked about how much he likes me as a friend and thanked me for inviting him to the party and all. Most of the people at the party I knew well liked him (Until the strange event happened), so it's not just me.
Regardless of whether or not he did what he might have done or not, I still feel guilty for putting him in the situation and possibly causing a person with no money and possibly no home, to be fired from his job from the situation he was put in. I also feel that if I had not been going to sleep, I could have talked to him and clmed things down between the people, because I know them both and both respect me. I could have stopped it, I should have thought it out more, but I didn't.
This was bugging me a lot all of yesterday, when Isaac sits down next to me on the couch, gets really quiet for a while and then tells me that Kyle's brother was stabbed to death. I don't know much more about that, except that it happened in Florida, Kyle's not doing well, Kyle's going to be in Florida for a few days, apparently Kyle's brother died trying to stop two guys from fighting at a club, and that the whole thing is fucked up. I only met Kyle's brother once; he was an incredibly nice person. It's just fucked up. That's all I can think to say about it.
It does seem to come all at once doesn't it? It'd be too easy if it were otherwise. So worthless, so stupid. I really don't feel like going to class right now, but I've missed too much already.