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So i haven't had the best of lucky lately. I lost a 50 dollar bill, a book i loved and was in the middle of reading, and i think i may be getting sick for the third time in a month.
some other stuff as well that i don't feel like getting into.
I hope these small annoyances fix themselves soon. I'm trying to ignore my fustration until they pass because aside from that, my situation in life is great. I'm finally out of this rut that overtook me senior year, I love my job and classes, and i'm being productive for once.
something i've been trying to work at changing though. I don't like the way i come off as an idiot in groups of people. I'm not stupid, but for some reason, socializing (at times, even with people i should be comfortable with) disables me so that no one ever hears me utter anything intelligent sounding. I comprehend so much more than i express to people, and i think that not being able to put thoughts into words well in conversation makes it seem like i'm this clueless idiot.
and i'm not....i swear. i'm just awkward. but i'm working on it.
some other stuff as well that i don't feel like getting into.
I hope these small annoyances fix themselves soon. I'm trying to ignore my fustration until they pass because aside from that, my situation in life is great. I'm finally out of this rut that overtook me senior year, I love my job and classes, and i'm being productive for once.
something i've been trying to work at changing though. I don't like the way i come off as an idiot in groups of people. I'm not stupid, but for some reason, socializing (at times, even with people i should be comfortable with) disables me so that no one ever hears me utter anything intelligent sounding. I comprehend so much more than i express to people, and i think that not being able to put thoughts into words well in conversation makes it seem like i'm this clueless idiot.
and i'm not....i swear. i'm just awkward. but i'm working on it.