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Is it just me, or is every day leading up to disney stressful? Today was pretty bad. My goodbyes have started, and they're pretty tough. Today was the last time I'll see my psychologist until Jan. I've been going to her since I started high school (I have ADHD and anxiety). At first I was forced to go to her cause my ADHD, but after a while she became more like a friend and I chose to go there. It's nice to have someone you can talk to and know that anything you say won't leave the room. Anyway, I've grown really close to her over the years, and now I won't be able to run to her when I need to talk! I tried so hard not to cry in the room, it was tough. When I was leaving she gave me this little metal clicker thing to use when I'm stressed (instead of what I normally do- grab my arm). I swear I'm going to keep that thing on me at all times. I just had it in my hand because....
My dad is an asshole! If you read the post before this one, you'll know Penn State suddenly told me I can't take online courses through them while I'm in FL. I told my dad this about 15 minutes ago and he freaked out! He was like "oh how long have you been waiting to tell me this one?!" and "so what are you going to do down? Just go down to FL and have fun? Are you just going to drop out of college" etc, etc. Then I said I could take online classes through the community college here and he basically called me a failure. Nice huh? I orgininally wanted to do courses at Monmouth, but it was too late to be considered. So yeah, I can't stand my dad. It's not my fault!!
I hope you're all having better days leading up to disney!