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I'm feeling pretty terrible at the moment.
This week has been kinda awful.
I took the GMAT today and just didn't do so well. I got a 490, which is just terrible. We weren't allowed to use calculators, so that combined with data sufficiency problems really kicked my ass. The verbal portion just didn't sit well with me, either. I can't read on the computer to save my life.
I actually studied for this exam, too. I put forth an effort and got the study book. I finished the damn thing. I took three full length practice exams, too. I just didn't get it.
I haven't felt this stupid in a long time. That exam kinda killed my self esteem. I just want to curl into a ball and cry until I feel better. It reassured me that I'm not really good at anything. I'm just mediocre at a lot of things. I'm pretty inadequate.
I've also been dealing with problems involving my brother. He is supposed to move in tomorrow. I was going to help him. We weren't sure how to get his stuff down there.. since I'm not at home, and I wasn't planning on going home. What would've made the most sense is for him to just meet me down there with his stuff in the afternoon, and we could worry about cars later on. I get this frantic phone call from him earlier today about how I needed to pick him and his stuff up from home. That's total bullshit. I'm not driving all the way from Kennesaw to home to pick his ass up and drive him back downtown. I've got work committments tomorrow.. and other shit going on. Dad offered to pay me $10, but that wouldn't even cover the cost of gasoline to drive that much. I managed to talk to my dad, and either him or mom will take care of Zach in the afternoon.
Ian's asleep right now. I tried to go to sleep with him, but he fell asleep before me. I just needed to write my thoughts down before I tried to go to sleep. I feel bad for being such a sad sack, since I know I'm no fun to be around when I'm one... but I can't help it right now. I just feel so lame.
I miss having lots of puppies in my life. I need that source of unconditional love hardcore. Echo just isn't enough.
My birthday is on Sunday. I was planning on having a small get together at Ian's house on Saturday with a few of my friends and a few of his friends. Turns out none of my friends are able to make it. So, I'm having a party with nothing but his friends. It makes me look pathetic and worthless. I mean, I know people have things going on. People are broke, and gas is expensive... but still. This keeps happening to me. Every fucking year. I'm not sure why I even bother anymore.
I think I'm gonna go lie down now....
This week has been kinda awful.
I took the GMAT today and just didn't do so well. I got a 490, which is just terrible. We weren't allowed to use calculators, so that combined with data sufficiency problems really kicked my ass. The verbal portion just didn't sit well with me, either. I can't read on the computer to save my life.
I actually studied for this exam, too. I put forth an effort and got the study book. I finished the damn thing. I took three full length practice exams, too. I just didn't get it.
I haven't felt this stupid in a long time. That exam kinda killed my self esteem. I just want to curl into a ball and cry until I feel better. It reassured me that I'm not really good at anything. I'm just mediocre at a lot of things. I'm pretty inadequate.
I've also been dealing with problems involving my brother. He is supposed to move in tomorrow. I was going to help him. We weren't sure how to get his stuff down there.. since I'm not at home, and I wasn't planning on going home. What would've made the most sense is for him to just meet me down there with his stuff in the afternoon, and we could worry about cars later on. I get this frantic phone call from him earlier today about how I needed to pick him and his stuff up from home. That's total bullshit. I'm not driving all the way from Kennesaw to home to pick his ass up and drive him back downtown. I've got work committments tomorrow.. and other shit going on. Dad offered to pay me $10, but that wouldn't even cover the cost of gasoline to drive that much. I managed to talk to my dad, and either him or mom will take care of Zach in the afternoon.
Ian's asleep right now. I tried to go to sleep with him, but he fell asleep before me. I just needed to write my thoughts down before I tried to go to sleep. I feel bad for being such a sad sack, since I know I'm no fun to be around when I'm one... but I can't help it right now. I just feel so lame.
I miss having lots of puppies in my life. I need that source of unconditional love hardcore. Echo just isn't enough.
My birthday is on Sunday. I was planning on having a small get together at Ian's house on Saturday with a few of my friends and a few of his friends. Turns out none of my friends are able to make it. So, I'm having a party with nothing but his friends. It makes me look pathetic and worthless. I mean, I know people have things going on. People are broke, and gas is expensive... but still. This keeps happening to me. Every fucking year. I'm not sure why I even bother anymore.
I think I'm gonna go lie down now....