what is going on?
So I was talking to my aunt, who works for the government.
And I'm telling her about my major and all of this.... and she tells me about a really cool co-op that I could do with the NSA involving my language stuff. The only this is that I'd have to learn either arabic or chinese. russian's pushing it a little, but it would work in a pinch. I'd be more that happy to learn any language at all, and I've been interested in arabic. And very much so russian. chinese not so much, but whatever... I don't know if I have the talent.... well, not so much talent, but more work ethic.... to actually learn enough to be useful.
And the more I think about it the more it would make me really happy to work for the government... I could have a decent job right out of college, get paid for going back to school, and have it paid for me..... I would be able to do shit that I can't even imagine right now, I'd be learning languages and actually learning them and using them, and doing important things. Then after my career as a linguist is done, I could go teach at some university somewhere in east bumblefuck and tell really corny jokes, and have people laugh at them, just because......... But then I think about my dream to sit in my overcluttered office with reeds and reed making stuff and colorguard equipment and music and oboes and flutes and clarinets and random instruments that no one has ever heard of, telling corny jokes and playing oboe all day/giving private lessons just for the hell of it..... GOD DAMN!
I just want to figure out what I want to do with my life..... I feel like this could be sooooo much fun.... but I feel like music would be so much fun as well.... I could make my talents useful. I could make others useful in a completely different way. Anyone have any encouraging words? Anything?
I suppose the audition this fall will prove something?
Either way, I hope that I go far in anything. I have to stop living in the world where I think that I can do everything I want to and settle down... which I will have you know, is a very saddening idea... I used to think that I'd be able to pull it off.... ha. naivety at its best.
now to shower and bed, and easter brunch tomorrow.
joyus.
<3 Luke
And I'm telling her about my major and all of this.... and she tells me about a really cool co-op that I could do with the NSA involving my language stuff. The only this is that I'd have to learn either arabic or chinese. russian's pushing it a little, but it would work in a pinch. I'd be more that happy to learn any language at all, and I've been interested in arabic. And very much so russian. chinese not so much, but whatever... I don't know if I have the talent.... well, not so much talent, but more work ethic.... to actually learn enough to be useful.
And the more I think about it the more it would make me really happy to work for the government... I could have a decent job right out of college, get paid for going back to school, and have it paid for me..... I would be able to do shit that I can't even imagine right now, I'd be learning languages and actually learning them and using them, and doing important things. Then after my career as a linguist is done, I could go teach at some university somewhere in east bumblefuck and tell really corny jokes, and have people laugh at them, just because......... But then I think about my dream to sit in my overcluttered office with reeds and reed making stuff and colorguard equipment and music and oboes and flutes and clarinets and random instruments that no one has ever heard of, telling corny jokes and playing oboe all day/giving private lessons just for the hell of it..... GOD DAMN!
I just want to figure out what I want to do with my life..... I feel like this could be sooooo much fun.... but I feel like music would be so much fun as well.... I could make my talents useful. I could make others useful in a completely different way. Anyone have any encouraging words? Anything?
I suppose the audition this fall will prove something?
Either way, I hope that I go far in anything. I have to stop living in the world where I think that I can do everything I want to and settle down... which I will have you know, is a very saddening idea... I used to think that I'd be able to pull it off.... ha. naivety at its best.
now to shower and bed, and easter brunch tomorrow.
joyus.
<3 Luke