umm theres a couple of tings that need to be said...
well i just got home from chilling wit the sassys. we went to beverly hills cafe and stuffed our faces like usual...lol we played "ive never" and made our "beverly promise" right gurls? lmao so yea altima corola kitchen locked in da room but no action ...LMAO! you guys are great friends and youve really made me feel more confident around you. you guys are nothing what ppl put you out there to be. your wonderful girls with wonderful minds...mua...i <3 u!
yesturday something horrible happened. wut wasnt expected. i told a freind how i felt and it all blew outta porpotion. we went at it really bad. im sure most of the things that were said, were out of spite and anger...but things happen for a reason right? i dont happen to think so. not in this case. we both went a lil overboard in our feelings and truly hurt EACH OTHER! not only one person got hurt(for the record). and just b.c i feel a certain way now, doesnt mean i felt that way all along. ive never felt that way about you for that matter. and wut upsets me the most is how she doubts wut we had. me and that gurl had the best friendship. we told each other everything we felt and everything that we shared was not taken for granted. wether she decides to never speak to me again, i dont want things to be misunderstood. our friendship was never all a lie. i love you always did and i still do. ive always cared for you and maybe thats why i told you the things i did. and by the way i dont regret anything i said. maybe the karen thing was a lil exxagerated, but i didnt like teh fact u threw that in my face. and another thing just becouse im your best friend doesnt mean that im blind and im soppused to see everything you do right. just like you dont see things i do right i dont see certain things correct. and im sorry i had the bawls to say them to your face. you take things however you want but i said them to you b.c thast how i saw you and for the most part how EVERYONE else sees you. and just becouse im your friend doesnt mean im soppused to keep my mouth shut. maybe i shouldnt have said the things i did like that..but i dont like to sugar coat things. im going to tell you str8 out, just like you alwasy tell us bluntly yet honestly. and if you can do it so can i. and im sorry you dont like to hear the truth but uive asked me a million and one times how i felt about the situation. did i ever tell you how i really felt? no. why b.c i knew you wouldnt like to hear the truth. u could never except teh truth and find a way on changing the subject from you to me. another thing, judging you isnt the same thing as seeing wuts actually there. if youd like look up the word in teh dictionary and u will see wut it truly means. something else...funny how when i was sayiing the truth you popped up with lil lies and turning shit around like if wut i was doing ever amounted to wut you were doing. and if u truly think that our friendship was all a lie and i would want to hurt you so bad as you say then you kno wut it is better of this way. i dun need freinds that will doubt our friendship. i dont need that and i surely dont need someone that doesnt agree with my life. so if you truly meant everything you said, then your the one that doesnt even have to bother even looking at me in the halls. no matter wut the outcome is i will never forget what we had and how special u are to me. if u ever could ever put ur pride down and realize that i never felt that way about you then you let me now. you kno my number and most importantly you nko my personality.
to my buddy janell: wow i cant belive weve become so close. your so mportant to me and im glad were freinds. your so cool and i luv wut we have. im so happy to hear that u feel the same. your wonderful and u kno im hear to back you up in anything. remeber that im only a call or beep away ;) even when ur not sober...lol (knowledge) well babes mwa 143*50538
yesturday something horrible happened. wut wasnt expected. i told a freind how i felt and it all blew outta porpotion. we went at it really bad. im sure most of the things that were said, were out of spite and anger...but things happen for a reason right? i dont happen to think so. not in this case. we both went a lil overboard in our feelings and truly hurt EACH OTHER! not only one person got hurt(for the record). and just b.c i feel a certain way now, doesnt mean i felt that way all along. ive never felt that way about you for that matter. and wut upsets me the most is how she doubts wut we had. me and that gurl had the best friendship. we told each other everything we felt and everything that we shared was not taken for granted. wether she decides to never speak to me again, i dont want things to be misunderstood. our friendship was never all a lie. i love you always did and i still do. ive always cared for you and maybe thats why i told you the things i did. and by the way i dont regret anything i said. maybe the karen thing was a lil exxagerated, but i didnt like teh fact u threw that in my face. and another thing just becouse im your best friend doesnt mean that im blind and im soppused to see everything you do right. just like you dont see things i do right i dont see certain things correct. and im sorry i had the bawls to say them to your face. you take things however you want but i said them to you b.c thast how i saw you and for the most part how EVERYONE else sees you. and just becouse im your friend doesnt mean im soppused to keep my mouth shut. maybe i shouldnt have said the things i did like that..but i dont like to sugar coat things. im going to tell you str8 out, just like you alwasy tell us bluntly yet honestly. and if you can do it so can i. and im sorry you dont like to hear the truth but uive asked me a million and one times how i felt about the situation. did i ever tell you how i really felt? no. why b.c i knew you wouldnt like to hear the truth. u could never except teh truth and find a way on changing the subject from you to me. another thing, judging you isnt the same thing as seeing wuts actually there. if youd like look up the word in teh dictionary and u will see wut it truly means. something else...funny how when i was sayiing the truth you popped up with lil lies and turning shit around like if wut i was doing ever amounted to wut you were doing. and if u truly think that our friendship was all a lie and i would want to hurt you so bad as you say then you kno wut it is better of this way. i dun need freinds that will doubt our friendship. i dont need that and i surely dont need someone that doesnt agree with my life. so if you truly meant everything you said, then your the one that doesnt even have to bother even looking at me in the halls. no matter wut the outcome is i will never forget what we had and how special u are to me. if u ever could ever put ur pride down and realize that i never felt that way about you then you let me now. you kno my number and most importantly you nko my personality.
to my buddy janell: wow i cant belive weve become so close. your so mportant to me and im glad were freinds. your so cool and i luv wut we have. im so happy to hear that u feel the same. your wonderful and u kno im hear to back you up in anything. remeber that im only a call or beep away ;) even when ur not sober...lol (knowledge) well babes mwa 143*50538