Is My Life Any Less?
Is my life any less because I do not have the job of my dreams or a home of everyone else's standard. Or in a relationship? Does that mean I am less of a person?
Does that mean that everyone else's life is more meaningful?
Am I less of a person because I let my fears hold me back? Fears about
men, fears about my career. In these two arena's I swim in a pool of REJECTION and FAILURE.
Am I less of a person because I am taking my time to settle into my life? Somewhat like a baby who does not want to be born. Does not feel ready to leave the womb, but is somehow forced to.
Am I less of a person because of the guilt I live with daily. Guilt that is so heavy. Guilt that I am a failure and not living up to my potential.
Am I less of a person because I let other people step all over me? Always hoping that some one will come along and do the right thing.
I am exhausted by my feelings.
I am ready to fight these feelings. That is the good part :)
Does that mean that everyone else's life is more meaningful?
Am I less of a person because I let my fears hold me back? Fears about
men, fears about my career. In these two arena's I swim in a pool of REJECTION and FAILURE.
Am I less of a person because I am taking my time to settle into my life? Somewhat like a baby who does not want to be born. Does not feel ready to leave the womb, but is somehow forced to.
Am I less of a person because of the guilt I live with daily. Guilt that is so heavy. Guilt that I am a failure and not living up to my potential.
Am I less of a person because I let other people step all over me? Always hoping that some one will come along and do the right thing.
I am exhausted by my feelings.
I am ready to fight these feelings. That is the good part :)