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I've always just kind of someone who tells themself how to feel and how to focus...and it just happens. The past couple of days, I've been a little off kilter, though. My uncle died on Friday morning...right around the same time that I mentioned him in my journal. So, since then...I've had dreams about my parents dying and trying to keep some sort of even keel without them. I think one of the things that really bugged me was on Friday night when I heard my dad go downstairs and turn on the TV. I could just see him lying in bed at 2:00 in the morning and just feeling his mind wander through his life with his brother. I could see him sitting in bed and just praying that he could get some sleep...knowing that he would probably feel guilty about moving on with his life so quickly. Well, they're taking my van tomorrow morning and driving down to South Carolina. There will be a dinner with all the brothers on Monday night, after the viewing, and the services will be on Tuesday. Whether they decide to stay down there on Wed is dependant on how well we have things going up here without them. I'm pretty sure that it should go well...but it comes down to how well I am with the collections. Well...it's time for me to get to work...