Day three. Or- AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Shaking so hard that I’ve now dropped and smashed seven glasses. She should buy me a tippy cup. Fucks sake. This is so pathetic. If I’d known I was going to have to give it up I would have never started it in the first place. My skin is grey and when you pinch it the make is white. I don’t know where the blood has gone. Ran out of so many little black holes I suppose. Trickle trickle.
My heartbeat has fucked up. It sounds like wonk and it should be dubstep. Scared it goes jungle. Hmmm. Stuff to take my mind off of this so far has been to read (can’t concentrate), draw (too shaky), kiss (feel too grimy to cope with it), watch tv (it’s shit), drink (ok, that worked for a bit but still sore and feverish), aaaand write.
Writing though looks like this;
Tempest short and. No more shelter from storms of a creation one cannot seem to pin down, still into the sky we stare and stare while the greying clouds converse overhead and whisper about the hurry scurry tiny ants they could wash away in a single instant if they felt the want to. And while the Formicidae shake and shiver at the prospect of their early and abrupt demise they know that when the rain comes the clouds will clear, and in the taking of so many lives the clouds have in fact signed their own death warrants. They have, like so many tyrants before them, destroyed themselves.
WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN??
Sooo Meme. This one, cause Dylan is very much my life.
1. Are you a male or female?
Ugliest girl in the world.
2. Describe yourself:
Take me as I am.
3. How do you feel:
I feel a change comin' on.
4. Describe where you currently live:
Bucket of rain.
5. If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Positively 4th Street.
6. Your favorite form of transportation:
Rollin' and tumblin'
7. Your best friend:
Only a hobo.
8. Your favorite color is:
Up to me.
9. What's the weather like:
Black diamond bay.
10. Favorite time of day:
Moonlight
11. If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Idiot wind
12. What is life to you:
Lord protect my child.
13. Your current relationship:
You angel you.
14. Looking for:
Trouble.
15. Wouldn’t mind:
To be alone with you.
16. Your fear:
You’re gonna quit me.
17. What is the best advice you have to give:
Don’t think twice, it’s alright.
18. If you could change your name, you would change it to
Clean Cut Kid.
19. Thought for the Day:
Going going gone.
20. How you want to die:
Tryin’ to get to heaven.
21. My motto:
4th time around.