[multichapter] I want to turn around, but I can't come back! (3/?)
Title: I want to turn around but I can't come back ~ Chapter 3
Pairing: Ryoda, Junda (for later chapters)
Raiting: NC-17
Genre: romance, angst, fluff(?)
Beta: lovely kat_h_chan !!! <3
Summary: Tatsuya loves Ryo, Ryo wants sex.
Disclaimer: I don't own them!
A/N: The idea came up one day...I don't know where it will lead to!
chapter 1
chapter 2
„Kazu....“ Tatsuya said in a very small voice. Kame turned around to look at him. He looked into a pair of big brown orbs, sadness and hurt written into them.
“What is it Tat-chan?” Kame asked softly, though he already knew that Tatsuya had seen Ryo with that girl. There was no other reason for Tatsuya to be this sad in the world. It was always Ryo. Kame felt a sudden urge to beat that Osakan idiot up.
“I don't really feel like going out anymore!” Tatsuya said. He had in fact never really felt like it, but Kame had convinced him to go with him. But really, seeing Ryo with somebody else, even worse with a girl! Tatsuya felt like the biggest idiot ever. He knew that Ryo was normally after women though he also got himself men from time to time but he'd never love a man! Why did he even want Tatsuya the latter wondered. Maybe he thought that my face looked like a girl's he thought bitterly.
“I'll just go home...” he said to Kame.
“No, Tat-chan, please don't!” Kame said and dragged him inside the club. “Look over there are Jin and Pi, we can have a nice evening with them and just forget about that idiot, okay?”
Tatsuya smiled at him, because he appreciated how much Kame wanted him to cheer up and the effort the younger man put into it. So he let himself be dragged over to the table where Pi and Jin were sitting.
Once they sat down with them still uninformed and half-drunk Jin leaned over to Tatsuya.
“Awwww Tat-chan, why are you looking so sad??” he asked in a concerned, but happy voice.
“It's nothing...” Tatsuya mumbled his head hanging down.
“Come on, Tatsuya! Enjoy the evening with us!” Pi said, trying to cheer the sad boy up. But instead of being cheered up, tears were flowing down his cheeks and soft sobs escape his mouth.
“Tat-chan!” Kame said hugging the trembling boy immediately and same did Pi from the other side.
“Shhh...don't cry!” Pi said and tried to stop the tears from falling down.
“B-but” Tatsuya hiccupped. “He treats me like his sex object. He isn't even interested in men at all...he's only using me and I can't even say no!” he whispered.
Meanwhile in confused Jin's head certain pieces fell into certain places and suddenly he understood the whole situation.
“Tat-chan did have sex with Ryo-chan?????” he screamed in disbelief.
Immediately all the visitors of the club turned their heads in their direction and Tatsuya's face turned bright red in a mere second.
Kame's eyes narrowed down into a dangerous glare.
“Akanishi Jin, I swear you are the most stupid person I've ever met!”
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The next day Tatsuya felt like skipping work. He really did. Of course Jin had been apologizing the whole way home, but that didn't change the fact that now not only half of the jimusho knew about what he had done but everybody there. He liked his work. He liked it a lot. But now he really, really felt like staying home. Luckily the other members of KAT-TUN, especially Kame and Junno encouraged him a lot. Finally he went to work. But when he was walking down the corridors he could hear other people chatter behind his back and he felt the looks saying: poor guy, he's fallen for Nishikido Ryo.
When he reached their dressing room, he slumped himself down on a couch. This was too much, really. How should he go on when everything he did reminded him of Ryo in a way? He sighed loudly when Junno came in.
“What is it Uepi? Don't make such a sad face; you look much more beautiful when you smile!”
Tatsuya looked at him, surprised.
“I look beautiful?”
Junno blushed when he realized what he had just said.
“Uh-m well, you are a Johnny's so you have to look beautiful, right?” he stuttered.
Tatsuya looked at him. He wondered what was going on with the other. Normally it wasn't likely for Junno to say something like that. Especially not that bluntly. Tatsuya assumed that this was to cheer him up. He smiled at the tall man in front.
“Thanks Junno!”
Junno stared at him in awe. This smile was so cute and adorable. He sat down beside Tatsuya.
“See smiling is much better, right?”
He leaned closer to him.
“I wish that you stay smiling today and stop looking sad because of that stupid guy, okay?” Junno whispered into Tatsuya's ear.
Tatsuya gulped. Junno was so close to him, he could even smell his scent.
“O-okay.” he said slowly. And smiled. Junno stayed close and Tatsuya didn't know what to say anymore, when Nakamaru and Kame entered. Junno quickly pulled away and stood up.
“What are you doing?” Nakamaru asked confused.
“N-nothing!” Junno and Tatsuya said simultaneously.
Kame looked at them with disbelief, but it was time to start practice and so they didn't discuss about the topic anymore.
They practice went good all in all. While Tatsuya was busy dancing he was so concentrated that he couldn't think about Ryo or anything Ryo related anymore. And during the breaks his band members and friends did all they could to distract him from his sorrows. Even Jin and Pi visited them under flimsy reasons to have a look at how he was doing. At the end of the day Tatsuya's smile was real and he was humming a random melody when they went back to their dressing room to change again. All of them were chatting and joking around.
“Are you going to have dinner with Junno and me?” Koki asked Tatsuya.
“Sure!” he replied, smiling brightly while packing his stuff into his bag. When he was about to follow the others he saw that he had a new text message on his phone. He flipped it open and read it. And froze in his movement.
“Tat-chan, what's up?” Koki asked him as he noticed that he didn't walk anymore.
“Nothing!” Tatsuya said quickly and stuffed the phone back into his pocket. But his mind stayed on the text of the message.
From: Unknown number
To: Ueda Tatsuya
Hello!
Do you want to go out for dinner with me on Friday? Please send a reply soon.
Ryo
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to be continued...
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First of all, thanks to the best beta in the word, kat_h_chan !! <333
Second, this my last piece for the next few weeks, because I'm going on hiatus! Nothing bad, it's just that I will be on holidays in the land of my dreams (namly Norway! xD) and I don't think I will have time and motivation to wrote there....I'll be back in September and continue writing then!
I wish everybody a good time and see you, my dear readers! ;)