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i just deleted the entry i wrote 2secs ago because dani/ and the movie moulin rouge inspired to write more! haha so last night i watched moulin rouge and like fell in love again? lol i dont know with who really..but i just completely missed the feeling of being a in a relationship cause theyre so cute. i just miss those lovely dovey moments you have when you really like someone, and you know they really like you and its all mushy and you guys think you're in love but you're really not(but its okay) because at the moment you feel amazing. haha. i cant stop listening to moulin rouge songs now. i put one on my myspace page cause im a loser... haha anyways but dani kind made me wanna write that all cause she has a boyfriend now and she writes the sweetest thigns ever about him on her livejournal its so damn cute. (look at it). i love it when people though get into relationships cause i like seeing people happy. the only downfall is when theyre fighting, or something then of course you gotta cheer them up..thats the only sucky part. but i think right now LIKE RIGHT NOW everyone should go out and get a boyfriend/girlfriend haha and write all cute stuff about them on their livejournal like dani does. haha i just went from a song difference i went from moulin rouge soundtrack to silverstein. AH! i love them though discovering the waterfront is such a good song...please download and listen cause its reallly, really good. anyways i really want  boyfriend atm ill prob change my mind by the end of tonight when i get fucked up haha but i really want a boyfriend at this moment. hmm i want someone like daddy yankee (look matt his name-raymond ayala) hes so damn hot! so i must tell you all that his back up singer called me the other day and i was flipping literally FLIPPING OUT but it was one of those quiet flips the ones i have way to often. but anyways if you guys didnt know when i was in chile, leaving from the airport i met daddy yankees group like i met his cousin, back up singer, and dancer. and they asked for my number and everything (!) and i gave it to them and they gave me theirs but i never actually thought they'd ever call me or anything BUT to my fucking surprise the back up singer calls me the other day and tells me that DY is having a concert on friday and that theyre coming to NY from PR on thursday and hes going to call me &!*@&! he sent me like pictures on email too it was hot. hes pretty gross i mean hes not attractive but i mean anyway to getting closer to DY is good for me! like i told matt if i meet him and he asks to me take my clothes off ill do it in a heartbeat, or if i were in a relationship i would def CHEAT def. like no question about it. you know its so werid cause i use to have a horrible obsession (its gone a little down) with daddy yankee and i always thought that i could meet him, and like hangout with him and i duno i use to have all these fantasies (i sound like a freak) but like now it feels like its all coming true. its soooo weird. aH! i love daddy yankee ... if i could have anyone ever it would def be him. like i would leave everything, and anyting for him. hes soooooo damn hot. holy shit. hes literally the sexiest man alive. like hottest thing ever, ever, ever!. ok this is sick. i need to stop. but i really want dy if theres anyone i can have right now it would def be him! ok im DONE. i feel like such a weirdo now lol.whatevsss. i gotta clean my digusting room now, and try waxing myself for the 29371283 time k. oh and dont forget to d/l that song and think of me : )! haha kk byebye.

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?
-nine inch nails.