why?
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
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I don't know how things came to be my fault. I was hurt and needed space, space and time are different from being cold and angry even if they appear similar.
I kept my friend's secrets and never let a guy come between us. Today I was talking with someone about some random situation and it became relevant to relationships. Some girls tell guys alot about their friends in order to feel closer to the guy. I have never done that. I have tried to date twice in my life and both times I never let the guy get closer than my friends. Infact, both times the fact that my friends were so important to me became an issue.
I just didn't know that I would make sacrifices which others did not. I tried to be the kind of friend I would want but I didn't know how much it would hurt...I cry all the time and I don't know who to trust anymore. I will probably never feel safe or comfortable with anyone. It took me so long to like anyone after everything that happened in my past, and the one person I told all of those feelings to...it hurts so much more than I could have imagined pain could hurt.
How is it my fault? When does it stop hurting? Why does it keep happening?
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
*****************************************************
I don't know how things came to be my fault. I was hurt and needed space, space and time are different from being cold and angry even if they appear similar.
I kept my friend's secrets and never let a guy come between us. Today I was talking with someone about some random situation and it became relevant to relationships. Some girls tell guys alot about their friends in order to feel closer to the guy. I have never done that. I have tried to date twice in my life and both times I never let the guy get closer than my friends. Infact, both times the fact that my friends were so important to me became an issue.
I just didn't know that I would make sacrifices which others did not. I tried to be the kind of friend I would want but I didn't know how much it would hurt...I cry all the time and I don't know who to trust anymore. I will probably never feel safe or comfortable with anyone. It took me so long to like anyone after everything that happened in my past, and the one person I told all of those feelings to...it hurts so much more than I could have imagined pain could hurt.
How is it my fault? When does it stop hurting? Why does it keep happening?