speaking adult-ish
so yesterday after work, I went for a drink with a co-worker. I was pretty stoked because he's older (27), but he's young at heart so I knew we'd have a fun time just talking about whatever! plus, he's a filmmaker. we talked about Power Hour which he's been bringing up a lot recently. apparently he's made it into a more entertaining game by creating a DVD, a sort of reel of his work, that counts down to each minute and tells you when to drink. sounds fun! so we said we'll do that together some time. then we talked a lot about media and genders and expectations. we'd had a couple of beers (we started with a mind eraser which is way more delicious than I would have suspected).
at one point, "Rocky" texted me "how's the bar," I had told him where I was going. that's when I admitted to Pete that in the last few months, I have been talking to more than one guy at once. (in the back of my mind, I was hoping Pete wasn't trying to be more than friends with me; I just don't see that) I clarified that "talking" wasn't code for anything; in all my years, I have only "Slept" with 3 guys. No, its not about anything physical. In fact, I've come to realize that I'm looking for my best friend. Pete agrees that everyone is looking for the same thing, which is difficult to come by. So its really been about multiple guys who each bring something, but not everything. I'm not upset about it, though. it seems right, these days, not to expect a "prince." I'm focusing on me right now, and that seem right, too.
all in all, it was really enjoyable to talk to someone. I mean really just speculate about the life we've lived and the life to come. ah! breath of fresh air.
so around 5:30pm (about 2 hours later) we were given our bill (we didn't ask for it. I thought our bartender was joking when he said we were cut off) and Pete walked a few blocks with me before we split ways.
I'm leaving Starbucks soon so I look forward to being friend with Rocky and Pete and hopefully another one of the guys. I didn't pick guys because they are guys, for the record! It's just such a struggle to find girls who I want to be-friend and then how do I go about that if I do want to be-friend them? It's surprisingly easier with guy.
le hmph.
and that's what you've missed.
at one point, "Rocky" texted me "how's the bar," I had told him where I was going. that's when I admitted to Pete that in the last few months, I have been talking to more than one guy at once. (in the back of my mind, I was hoping Pete wasn't trying to be more than friends with me; I just don't see that) I clarified that "talking" wasn't code for anything; in all my years, I have only "Slept" with 3 guys. No, its not about anything physical. In fact, I've come to realize that I'm looking for my best friend. Pete agrees that everyone is looking for the same thing, which is difficult to come by. So its really been about multiple guys who each bring something, but not everything. I'm not upset about it, though. it seems right, these days, not to expect a "prince." I'm focusing on me right now, and that seem right, too.
all in all, it was really enjoyable to talk to someone. I mean really just speculate about the life we've lived and the life to come. ah! breath of fresh air.
so around 5:30pm (about 2 hours later) we were given our bill (we didn't ask for it. I thought our bartender was joking when he said we were cut off) and Pete walked a few blocks with me before we split ways.
I'm leaving Starbucks soon so I look forward to being friend with Rocky and Pete and hopefully another one of the guys. I didn't pick guys because they are guys, for the record! It's just such a struggle to find girls who I want to be-friend and then how do I go about that if I do want to be-friend them? It's surprisingly easier with guy.
le hmph.
and that's what you've missed.