mind blown
it still blows my mind that early May I stumbled upon a friend on Facebook who was suddenly engaged... and not the guy who i had always known her to be with for the 2 years that I knew her! The last time I saw her, she said that she'd be seeing The Killers live and was hopeful that Bobby would propose then. I asked my co-worker what he thought; they had recently gotten a place together so I didn't think it was such a far fetched notion. My co-worker didn't think it was likely. so like I said, 3 months ago, she's suddenly engaged, but not to Bobby! And there's no sign of Bobby on her page, nor her on his! I mean, I guess it makes sense to want to wipe those pictures away in hopes of not stirring up those memories, but just WOW!
In December, last I knew, she was with Bobby, living with him, hoping he's going to pop the question any day now. Then in May, she's engaged to someone else! So I had to think that she's known this new hubby for awhile now. Even more so, I'm gonna guess she sees him as the love of her life and he feels the same if they're jumping into marriage. was she seeing this guy while she was with Bobby? was she dating him at the same time, like, cheating behind Bobby's back? I'm not asking if she's a terrible a person. I'm just speculating. I like to think, she was always in love with this new hubby, that Bobby was very similar to him and when she couldn't be with this new guy (for whatever reason) Bobby came along and they clicked! Then, said new guy came BACK into the picture, was now available, and she couldn't be without him!
They got married last week (I saw something on FB) and as I'm looking through the album... "is that a baby bump?!" Janine has always been a tall, thin girl so any bump would be noticeable. "maybe it's just an odd angle." then I see on her timeline someone say "i can't wait to meet baby dawson!"
:O
there it is!
She's now 20 weeks pregnant. Let's do the math, people. That's about 5 months, meaning she got pregnant in March. In December, last I knew, her vision included Bobby as her groom, and then about 4 months later it's this guy! woah.
I'm just stating facts here. To think about. Life can really change so fast...
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On my drive home, Ke$ha's "the Harold song" came on. I had to hit "next" because that song makes me think of J.A., my Harold. I haven't talked to him or seen him since late the first week of May. I know that if I ever saw him, I'd have some very strong words to say to him. I don't know if I ever will see him, and if I do see him, I can't be sure that I'd say how I feel, but I like to think I can.
Anyway, thinking of him and what I'd say, got me in a funk so I went for run and a long walk. Then I come home to see I have facebook notifications. One is a message from someone I haven't talked to since August of 2011 (Facebook keeps all your chats and their dates) and he messaged me "how are you?" out of the blue!
Part of the reason I stopped talking to this guy was because he had a tendency to only talk to me when he was having girl problems. We didn't hang out much (maybe once or twice) while we were both in college. The random communication was too familiar to that of J.A., and I got fed up feeling like he just wanted to talk to me when it would make him feel good or he had no else. so i vented; I said I couldn't talk to him anymore because I didn't feel that we were friends, but moreso just a wall to talk to.
i see now that I felt the same way towards Jon. I still have no idea how he saw/ sees me, and I'm not sure I want to know.
We fucked up.
But I'm glad Eric msg'd me today, even if it was just a "hey, what's up?" I miss him, even if he is frightening similar to Jon...
I leave for philly in a month...
there are a lot of ellipses in my life.
In December, last I knew, she was with Bobby, living with him, hoping he's going to pop the question any day now. Then in May, she's engaged to someone else! So I had to think that she's known this new hubby for awhile now. Even more so, I'm gonna guess she sees him as the love of her life and he feels the same if they're jumping into marriage. was she seeing this guy while she was with Bobby? was she dating him at the same time, like, cheating behind Bobby's back? I'm not asking if she's a terrible a person. I'm just speculating. I like to think, she was always in love with this new hubby, that Bobby was very similar to him and when she couldn't be with this new guy (for whatever reason) Bobby came along and they clicked! Then, said new guy came BACK into the picture, was now available, and she couldn't be without him!
They got married last week (I saw something on FB) and as I'm looking through the album... "is that a baby bump?!" Janine has always been a tall, thin girl so any bump would be noticeable. "maybe it's just an odd angle." then I see on her timeline someone say "i can't wait to meet baby dawson!"
:O
there it is!
She's now 20 weeks pregnant. Let's do the math, people. That's about 5 months, meaning she got pregnant in March. In December, last I knew, her vision included Bobby as her groom, and then about 4 months later it's this guy! woah.
I'm just stating facts here. To think about. Life can really change so fast...
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...
On my drive home, Ke$ha's "the Harold song" came on. I had to hit "next" because that song makes me think of J.A., my Harold. I haven't talked to him or seen him since late the first week of May. I know that if I ever saw him, I'd have some very strong words to say to him. I don't know if I ever will see him, and if I do see him, I can't be sure that I'd say how I feel, but I like to think I can.
Anyway, thinking of him and what I'd say, got me in a funk so I went for run and a long walk. Then I come home to see I have facebook notifications. One is a message from someone I haven't talked to since August of 2011 (Facebook keeps all your chats and their dates) and he messaged me "how are you?" out of the blue!
Part of the reason I stopped talking to this guy was because he had a tendency to only talk to me when he was having girl problems. We didn't hang out much (maybe once or twice) while we were both in college. The random communication was too familiar to that of J.A., and I got fed up feeling like he just wanted to talk to me when it would make him feel good or he had no else. so i vented; I said I couldn't talk to him anymore because I didn't feel that we were friends, but moreso just a wall to talk to.
i see now that I felt the same way towards Jon. I still have no idea how he saw/ sees me, and I'm not sure I want to know.
We fucked up.
But I'm glad Eric msg'd me today, even if it was just a "hey, what's up?" I miss him, even if he is frightening similar to Jon...
I leave for philly in a month...
there are a lot of ellipses in my life.