mixed signals.
my sister once said: no guy wants to be friends with you.
But I like trying to make friends, meeting new people! The proof is there though. As I walked to the movie theater to meet Justin for our first hang out together, I thought "there are a number of guys I've hung out with once or twice to never see again." It was a mistake. We saw The Conjuring. He jumped a lot. We were THOSE PEOPLE a lot, "there's a ghost behind you! move, bitch!" We ate dinner afterwards and talked a lot. He tried to not accept my money when I paid my share of the ticket and check. Oy. It was at dinner that he reminded me he'd turned 21 not long ago and i said outloud "you're 21? what am i doing here?" only to remember that I was there to make a friend. As I think about it now, maybe more than anything, i wanted to see a movie, but not alone. justin has been texted me a couple night prior and could hold a conversation so I thought "it could be entertaining to get to know this guy." When he was texting me last night, though, I thought: he doesn't want to be friends with me. This happened while I sat next to a guy who I'm starting to get comfortable around: hand holding kind of comfortable. whoops! I have a lot more in common with this kid than I thought I would and that doesn't happen often. Then there's the fact that he doesn't ring those bells that scream: "he's just attracted to you as the weird girl." those bells went off a lot at Ramapo. They went off with Tim. They were distantly chiming at dinner with Justin (i havent figured that out yet). So as Justin's texting me, and I'm sitting next to my potential new bestie, I think: "Justin assumes I'm singe and looking. " "I feel kind of bad just texting with him right next to this other guy." "I'm leaving this state soon."
Oh life.
It gets better! This potential new bestie: I told him not too long ago that I'm not flirting with him and blatantly said that he's my friend. Yes, I used the F word. But now I'm wondering if there's an inkling of something else there.
Maybe I am fully responsible for sending mixed signals. I'm that girl who needs to really feel out the water (get cozy with a guy, be openly flirtacious with him, and even hold his hand, but nothing more) before deciding what it is that I'm looking for.
I asked my potential friend to go out for drinks with me this Friday. After what I said about being FRIENDS< I don't expect him to ask me out so I figured I'd make the move. He said he's going to a party, but that it could get awkward if I join him since two of his ex-girlfriends would be there.
OH! Well, that's considerate... right?
Merp. :I
This is my life, people.
But I like trying to make friends, meeting new people! The proof is there though. As I walked to the movie theater to meet Justin for our first hang out together, I thought "there are a number of guys I've hung out with once or twice to never see again." It was a mistake. We saw The Conjuring. He jumped a lot. We were THOSE PEOPLE a lot, "there's a ghost behind you! move, bitch!" We ate dinner afterwards and talked a lot. He tried to not accept my money when I paid my share of the ticket and check. Oy. It was at dinner that he reminded me he'd turned 21 not long ago and i said outloud "you're 21? what am i doing here?" only to remember that I was there to make a friend. As I think about it now, maybe more than anything, i wanted to see a movie, but not alone. justin has been texted me a couple night prior and could hold a conversation so I thought "it could be entertaining to get to know this guy." When he was texting me last night, though, I thought: he doesn't want to be friends with me. This happened while I sat next to a guy who I'm starting to get comfortable around: hand holding kind of comfortable. whoops! I have a lot more in common with this kid than I thought I would and that doesn't happen often. Then there's the fact that he doesn't ring those bells that scream: "he's just attracted to you as the weird girl." those bells went off a lot at Ramapo. They went off with Tim. They were distantly chiming at dinner with Justin (i havent figured that out yet). So as Justin's texting me, and I'm sitting next to my potential new bestie, I think: "Justin assumes I'm singe and looking. " "I feel kind of bad just texting with him right next to this other guy." "I'm leaving this state soon."
Oh life.
It gets better! This potential new bestie: I told him not too long ago that I'm not flirting with him and blatantly said that he's my friend. Yes, I used the F word. But now I'm wondering if there's an inkling of something else there.
Maybe I am fully responsible for sending mixed signals. I'm that girl who needs to really feel out the water (get cozy with a guy, be openly flirtacious with him, and even hold his hand, but nothing more) before deciding what it is that I'm looking for.
I asked my potential friend to go out for drinks with me this Friday. After what I said about being FRIENDS< I don't expect him to ask me out so I figured I'd make the move. He said he's going to a party, but that it could get awkward if I join him since two of his ex-girlfriends would be there.
OH! Well, that's considerate... right?
Merp. :I
This is my life, people.