2011 The year that was
What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
I moved back for the summer to a place that I used to live. I have never done that before. Other than that, nothing which makes my year sound quite boring, which it wasn’t!
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
It wasn’t a new years’ resolution but my goal for 2011 was to lose 12 kg and I managed to lose 18 kg and maintain it. For 2012 my goal is to lose 4 kg and maintain that.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
Did anyone close to you die?
No but my mum got breast cancer and no one knows what is to happen which scares me a bit.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
I spent a night at the emergency room and at first they thought that I had suffered a stroke…but it was “only” migraine which apparently is my new thing because of stress. And I haven’t suffered any panic attacks since April which have made my live much easier to go through.
What countries did you visit?
Denmark and Germany for liquor and vacations. Norway for skiing.
What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Peace of mind, to not spend so much time thinking and wondering about people.
What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
No specific date.
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Loosing 18 kg.
What was your biggest failure?
I guess not writing my exam paper.
What's your biggest regret?
How everything turned out with S.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having more money.
Whose behaviour merited celebration?
S&M for taking me in for the summer.
Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
S. I know what I did was lying to her since I withheld information that she had a right to know, but honestly what she did was worse. Sitting there telling me that she loved me and that I was the best friend that she ever had and then the night (and weeks) before telling M how much she dislikes me. I knew all the things she had said about me when she told me that I was her best friend, that is just sick, really really sick behaviour. To sit there and tell me lie after lie.
Who did you miss?
During the beginning of the year I really missed the boy because I felt our friendship fading.
During the end of the year I really missed M. I missed him everyday he wasn’t here.
I also missed my mum a lot, I haven’t seen her for a year now and I probably won’t see her until summer which I think is quite upsetting, which I on the other hand don’t understand, I’ve gone a year and a half without seeing her before but now I really miss her.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, I hated the boy and there was a lot of drama with him during the spring, we hardly ever talk or hang out anymore but I don’t hate him any more, I was over him and the way our friendship was pretty fast which is very surprising to me because I thought it would affect me much harder then it did.
Where did most of your money go?
Hanging out with M half the summer and then the whole fall.
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Winning tickets for me and the boy to see Winnerbäck.
What was the best thing you bought?
Pants at JC. I’ve always wanted to fit in a pair of pants from that store.
What did you want and got?
To go to Peace & Love with the boy. It was probably the last thing that we did together just the two of us, like the way it used to be. I had so much fun and it’s a nice memory of that friendship.
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Sandy and I went out dancing the night before so on my b-day we just hung out at home all day watching movies. It was the first b-day without the boy since we got to know each other so I have to say it was kind of boring cause we used to do really fun things on my b-day the years before. And I turned 27.
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder cause I have some things troubling my mind.
ii. thinner or fatter? Much THINNER!!!
iii. richer or poorer? So much poorer since I’ve spent all of my money.
What do you wish you'd done more of?
Working out.
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Smoking.
Did you fall in love in 2011?
No, cause I don’t love M.
How many one-night stands?
One, which was a big mistake and I stopped it.
What was your favourite TV program?
I really liked the last season of Dexter (and that’s the only show I’ve watched this year besides the L word).
What was the best book you read?
I didn’t read anything but school books.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Dylan. Both because it’s such a big part of the end of me and the boys friendship and because it’s such a big part of me and Ms new found friendship.
What was the best advertisement?
Hugo Boss with Jared Leto.
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Dylan.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Jeans and layers.
What kept you sane?
We haven’t talked in a while now but of course it’s the best of the best E-baby always and forever! This spring she pushed me through being so connected to the boy, I remembered sitting there crying when she talked me through sending a text to him saying that it’s over, it was the worst of days and she was there for me. Then during everything that happened this summer with S&M she listened to me, which I really needed cause I felt very trapped between the two of them.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
People that you really do love and care for, like the boy and like S, can do a 180 on you from one day to another and there you are, with a complete stranger.
What song will always remind you of 2011?
Bob Dylan - Tangled up in blue. I really loved this song before but it became very special this summer. M had never heard it and once he did he loved it right away which lead to the two of us hanging out everyday for the rest of the summer always listening to that song.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I lived with them on Montague Street
In a basement down the stairs
There was music in the cafes at night
And revolution in the air
Then he started into dealing with slaves
And something inside of him died
She had to sell everything she owned
And froze up inside
And when finally the bottom fell out
I became withdrawn
The only thing I knew how to do
Was to keep on keeping on like a bird that flew
Tangled up in blue.