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Letters.
Dear Dan,
We had fun at the works christmas party; and in actual fact you are surprisingly amazing in bed. Thank you for not being weird with me, taking the work gossip on the chin, acknowledging the fact it happened - and just being cool with it. You surprise me for a watersports instructor, and I have a fair lot of respect for you.
Cathy
PS - Thanks for saying my boobs look incredible. Possibly up there as favourite compliment of 2011.
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Dear Trent,
Don't ever tell a girl you love her; then disapear. TWICE. You're a bit of a dick, and I don't think i'll miss you ever again.
Cathy
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Dear Gary,
I'll start by saying; in my whole 26 years of life - you are one of the most incredible. I've known you (properly) for just a few months, and you are just inspiring. You've had a shitty time, and you've dealt with it - you suck it up, learn from it, deal with it and move on - quite frankly, I want to be like you.
So the rumours (which will come out soon) is true. I really liked you. I proper fancied you infact. And then you got with my housemate. I didn't say anything becuase it wasn't mine to say a word - and you and Kirst looked really happy - and you deserved that soppy smile on your face after your shitty year. But you should know she's fucking someone else - not only fucking but full on romancing and almost loving. I wish you could have been there when I found him in bed with her that mornring - one week after you left for SA. My heart dropped - not that I care who she's doing, who he is, nothing like that - because I knew you would have to find this out, and I know that you adore her, and I know that you deserve to be happy as larry - and this was not what should be happening to you.
For that; i'm sorry.
I'm not sure if this is all because I still like you - maybe i'm feeling protective because I know that if the shoe was on the other foot - you'd feel the same horrid feeling in the pit of your stomach. Maybe, you're just a really good person. A good friend. I feel protective of you - which is strage as you're bigger, stronger, taller, faster and have aload more tattoo's than I.I dunno - I just really want you to be happy.
I also know that you're gunna be super nice to her, even though she's done you over. A reminder - you don't have to be nice all the time. You have every right to be a prick. Don't let this just wash over. Don't smile whilst their holding up your insides. Feel something.
I'll be here always.
Caff X
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Dear Jess,
You are the best friend I have ever had. I love you. You don't need an essay - just know that you are loved, dearly.
Caff xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Dear Jack,
I never really realised that sex could change everything - and i'm totally afraid that we've fucked everything up by one act.
I love you - you are a good friend. Friends don't often come as laid back, funny caring and honest as you. To be honest, you surprised me the first time we all got wasted together. The next day you came into my room, pretty much fell onto my bed and bearhugged me and my terrible hangover. It felt an honest bear hug that morning. It was nice and normal, and I fully appreciate honesty within a friendship.
And now - it's broken.
I'm not sure if this letter is having a go at you, accepting the shittyness and saying goodbye, or if it's a plea for us to sort it out.
Whilst mashed on NYE I remember asking you if we were cool; and whats happened. You said “Doug blabbed to the Freshy boys and I just wish he hadn't”. Your mates laughed at you?! Deal with it Jack. Don't take your embarrasment of shagging me out on me. This isn't fair.
I can not keep seeing you at work and feeling totally miserable that we are no longer solid. We're broken - and i'm unsure if it's beyond repair or just a crack in our long long friendship that we will entail. I miss you Jack. Please, just be my friend again. Truth be told; I really fucking need you now. Everyhitng is fucked and I just want you.
But, if this is how it is, if this is going to be weird and fucked forever - lets put this to bed now. It was fun while it lasted. It was really fucking fun. I'm sorry you couldn't handle it. I'm sorry I can't shake you and explain all of this. I'm just, really, so sorry.
I'm unsure how to sign off. Lets work it out? It was nice knowing you? Stop being a bellend??
Pfft,
Cathy x
Conor,
I really like you - and I wish you would be clear about whether you liked me or not.
Conor - i'm exhausted of liking you. Your number is deleted and your face will slowly be forgotten. You drive me insane.
You know where I am.
C x