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i havent written this in a long time. i dont even think anyones gonna read it. in fact i dont htink im even gonna read it after i write this. but i just need to get this out. ive never been in this situation before.
i guess if you read this youll know who its about. theres just some things in life that you cant or wont ever forget. and theres some things that are just too hard to let go of. even when its going to hurt you. at least, for me it is. thats the hardest thing. letting go. and ive never been able to do it. and i still cant. buut what do you do? when theres someone so important to you that you dont want to let them out of your life, but you dont thikn that its possible to just be friends bc the feelings are still there? on both sides? i feel like my life is a wall thats closing in on me and no matter what decision i make im going to be losing what might have been the best thing to walk into my life. will ther ebe better? maybe. will there be worse? maybe. but how can you live your life if everytime something happens you ask yourslef will there, or what if, or but, or any qusetion. why dont you just live your life and do maybe not what you thik is the right thing to do, but its what your heart or your head is telling you to do. why give up something that you know you have right in front of you because of a fear of something youve never experienced before? if you were afraid of something you never did before, and you lived your life like that, then how could you posibbly ever do anything because everything you do is going to have a first time. i finally took my own advice when i stopped analyzing things. when i let stupid things go. but other people still analyze things. most people arent as mature as i am. idk. but sooner or later everyone realizes whats important and what they do and dont want in their life. but by then its usually too late to make a difference because its already passed.
if YOU read this, dont take it literally or as an insult or anything. im just trying to write my feelings down.
listen to daphne loves derby. theyre awesome
hopeless love
why did you carve your home in me
this broken heart is to weak to watch your way
and i regret the day we met
and help me forget your name
i guess if you read this youll know who its about. theres just some things in life that you cant or wont ever forget. and theres some things that are just too hard to let go of. even when its going to hurt you. at least, for me it is. thats the hardest thing. letting go. and ive never been able to do it. and i still cant. buut what do you do? when theres someone so important to you that you dont want to let them out of your life, but you dont thikn that its possible to just be friends bc the feelings are still there? on both sides? i feel like my life is a wall thats closing in on me and no matter what decision i make im going to be losing what might have been the best thing to walk into my life. will ther ebe better? maybe. will there be worse? maybe. but how can you live your life if everytime something happens you ask yourslef will there, or what if, or but, or any qusetion. why dont you just live your life and do maybe not what you thik is the right thing to do, but its what your heart or your head is telling you to do. why give up something that you know you have right in front of you because of a fear of something youve never experienced before? if you were afraid of something you never did before, and you lived your life like that, then how could you posibbly ever do anything because everything you do is going to have a first time. i finally took my own advice when i stopped analyzing things. when i let stupid things go. but other people still analyze things. most people arent as mature as i am. idk. but sooner or later everyone realizes whats important and what they do and dont want in their life. but by then its usually too late to make a difference because its already passed.
if YOU read this, dont take it literally or as an insult or anything. im just trying to write my feelings down.
listen to daphne loves derby. theyre awesome
hopeless love
why did you carve your home in me
this broken heart is to weak to watch your way
and i regret the day we met
and help me forget your name