loosing my soul...
So lately I've been shacked up due mostly to being broke and shit. It's been kinda funny over the last week and a half I've spent cooped up in here, I've been thinking about so much shit and it's starting to get to me. I've been wondering how I ended up in all this horrible debt I am after just last summer the most I worried about was what I was gonna do each day. I remember back to when I didn't have these bills to pay and now thta I don't have the money to pay them and I am just not even paying them mind it kinda feels like it did back then. I liked that feeling. Being worry free. It's all different now. I've been thinking about my affairs and how I conduct myself with people and around them. I visted my grandma yesterday and took lindsay with me and it just seems like I open up more to others when I'm with someone I know. I've never really had a conversation with her like I did yesterday. Maybe I'm hallucinating or something cuz it has been a really long time since I've seen her. I don't know.
I've also been thinking about how strange it is that a lot of my friend's families like/love me. Lindsay's grandma actually remembered me which was a shock cuz I haven't seen her in even longer than I can think. She had an oxygen tank this time and she didn't last time I saw her. Her grandpa liked me before he died (before I promised him I would take care of her), her mom likes me, and even her ass of a father liked me. matt's parents like me, daniel's parent's like me (which his mom is a beast to have warm up to you), john's parents are just plain impartial to everyone, anthony's dad even likes me and he doesn't even like anthony that much. Amy's dad likes me and I think her sister likes me, her friends (that I've met so far) i think like me... I just don't inderstand exactly why that is. I don't know what kind of energy I put off or whatever, but it's crazy. Most of the people I meet like me, all the girls I've taken the time to talk to like me, most of the guys who are not total assholes like me (cuz I'll tell an asshole to his face he's an asshole). It's weird. I've been thinking about it and I was thinking how I should have been more popular in shcool and shit with all these people likeing me in the way they do but I don't feel that I was popular in high school. Some of the popular girls I know say that I was, but I don't believe it. Oh well. Just dumb things I've been thinking about.
I had a pretty sweet day yesterday though. I got to hang out with lindsay most of the day. I haven't seen her in a long time. She would complain about how she never got ot hang out with me and I would tease her that it was her fault but I knew it was mine. I kind of avoid her sometimes because the gentleman in me always feels that it's my duty to treat a lady and it's kind of expensive to hang out with her. But it's always fun. I missed hanging out with her. We just kinda click well as friends. I laugh at her dumb jokes and she laughes at mine, we like a lot of the same things and I think we have pretty much similar personalities and what we don't have in common we tease each other about. But anyway I took her to Holiday Inn for an interview and kinda chilled in the Holidome waiting for her. It made me think back to when my grandparents would come out and see me in the summer and I would get excited to go down there. I loved that place at one point in my life and looked forward to it, but as with most things growing up it just faded to the back of my mind as another activity. I think she did alright in the interview, so we went down the sprint store and waited for like... 30 minutes for a guy to tell us there was nothing he could do and that we needed to call some service number to have her number changed. Apparently some peeps have been harassing her, which is weird because she's a really nice girl. I don't think I've ever seen her be mean to anyone. But after that we went and got chinese at the buffet. We talked about how we never get to see each other and what kind of things have been happening in our lives. When we left I told her we should visit her grandma so we did. We went and bought her groceries and brought them back. At the store Lindsay had this wonderful idea to buy all this stuff to make smores with... only there was no real intent to actually make them. Which was slightly funny. But after we took her groceries to her we went to see my grandma. We had to leave not too soon after due the emense heat yesterday and the chocolate being melty. We came back to my house so we could put the chocolate in the fridge. I made her the ashlee simpson CD and for some odd reason she started playing the olsen twin's movie New York Minute off HBO on demand. What a horrible piece of shit that was. but oh well, around 7 we left to get her friend Harvey from his work. For some reason at this point she told me that I didn't need to go if I didn't want to, but I could sense that undertone you can sometimes have when you suggest something you really don't want to happen. I knew she wanted me to go so I did even though I didn't really want to that much. But after we picked him up we went to the Dayton Mall and walked around a bit and ended up going to Ruby Tuesdays for some drinks. We chilled there till about 9 and I made a paper airplane out of their take out menu and proved to Lindsay that her texts don't come to my phone. We left to escape this creepy chick and went down to Meijer to get some skewers for the marshmellows because we had decided to have a late night pool party/smores roast at my crib. We then hopped over to Kroger to see Lindsays mom who i haven't seen in a while and pick up some lighter fluid and dustin (what a stupid name in my opinion). Then we went to lindsays house so she could get her swim gear on then we went to my place and did the damn thing. Matt and John came by and we messed with the fire but it was mostly swimming and screwing around in the pool. It was fun.
So john had the idea that we should all go to pki today. So we were on our way down when the wonderful rain came. So we improved and went to the dayton mall for a bit, popped down to CiCi's Pizza for some grub and went to see war of the worlds... It had a very disappointing end. The movie had that classic ending you would imagine, but the end of the invasion was so far beyond weak given what they tell you about the invaders in the opening sylyloquie. But It was alright i suppose. Nice suspense, effects and action. But yeah now I'm home doing that classic nothing. I suppose I got to live for the last 24 hours. So I won't complain too much now. Just wanted to update and all. More to come...
J-Leazzy
I've also been thinking about how strange it is that a lot of my friend's families like/love me. Lindsay's grandma actually remembered me which was a shock cuz I haven't seen her in even longer than I can think. She had an oxygen tank this time and she didn't last time I saw her. Her grandpa liked me before he died (before I promised him I would take care of her), her mom likes me, and even her ass of a father liked me. matt's parents like me, daniel's parent's like me (which his mom is a beast to have warm up to you), john's parents are just plain impartial to everyone, anthony's dad even likes me and he doesn't even like anthony that much. Amy's dad likes me and I think her sister likes me, her friends (that I've met so far) i think like me... I just don't inderstand exactly why that is. I don't know what kind of energy I put off or whatever, but it's crazy. Most of the people I meet like me, all the girls I've taken the time to talk to like me, most of the guys who are not total assholes like me (cuz I'll tell an asshole to his face he's an asshole). It's weird. I've been thinking about it and I was thinking how I should have been more popular in shcool and shit with all these people likeing me in the way they do but I don't feel that I was popular in high school. Some of the popular girls I know say that I was, but I don't believe it. Oh well. Just dumb things I've been thinking about.
I had a pretty sweet day yesterday though. I got to hang out with lindsay most of the day. I haven't seen her in a long time. She would complain about how she never got ot hang out with me and I would tease her that it was her fault but I knew it was mine. I kind of avoid her sometimes because the gentleman in me always feels that it's my duty to treat a lady and it's kind of expensive to hang out with her. But it's always fun. I missed hanging out with her. We just kinda click well as friends. I laugh at her dumb jokes and she laughes at mine, we like a lot of the same things and I think we have pretty much similar personalities and what we don't have in common we tease each other about. But anyway I took her to Holiday Inn for an interview and kinda chilled in the Holidome waiting for her. It made me think back to when my grandparents would come out and see me in the summer and I would get excited to go down there. I loved that place at one point in my life and looked forward to it, but as with most things growing up it just faded to the back of my mind as another activity. I think she did alright in the interview, so we went down the sprint store and waited for like... 30 minutes for a guy to tell us there was nothing he could do and that we needed to call some service number to have her number changed. Apparently some peeps have been harassing her, which is weird because she's a really nice girl. I don't think I've ever seen her be mean to anyone. But after that we went and got chinese at the buffet. We talked about how we never get to see each other and what kind of things have been happening in our lives. When we left I told her we should visit her grandma so we did. We went and bought her groceries and brought them back. At the store Lindsay had this wonderful idea to buy all this stuff to make smores with... only there was no real intent to actually make them. Which was slightly funny. But after we took her groceries to her we went to see my grandma. We had to leave not too soon after due the emense heat yesterday and the chocolate being melty. We came back to my house so we could put the chocolate in the fridge. I made her the ashlee simpson CD and for some odd reason she started playing the olsen twin's movie New York Minute off HBO on demand. What a horrible piece of shit that was. but oh well, around 7 we left to get her friend Harvey from his work. For some reason at this point she told me that I didn't need to go if I didn't want to, but I could sense that undertone you can sometimes have when you suggest something you really don't want to happen. I knew she wanted me to go so I did even though I didn't really want to that much. But after we picked him up we went to the Dayton Mall and walked around a bit and ended up going to Ruby Tuesdays for some drinks. We chilled there till about 9 and I made a paper airplane out of their take out menu and proved to Lindsay that her texts don't come to my phone. We left to escape this creepy chick and went down to Meijer to get some skewers for the marshmellows because we had decided to have a late night pool party/smores roast at my crib. We then hopped over to Kroger to see Lindsays mom who i haven't seen in a while and pick up some lighter fluid and dustin (what a stupid name in my opinion). Then we went to lindsays house so she could get her swim gear on then we went to my place and did the damn thing. Matt and John came by and we messed with the fire but it was mostly swimming and screwing around in the pool. It was fun.
So john had the idea that we should all go to pki today. So we were on our way down when the wonderful rain came. So we improved and went to the dayton mall for a bit, popped down to CiCi's Pizza for some grub and went to see war of the worlds... It had a very disappointing end. The movie had that classic ending you would imagine, but the end of the invasion was so far beyond weak given what they tell you about the invaders in the opening sylyloquie. But It was alright i suppose. Nice suspense, effects and action. But yeah now I'm home doing that classic nothing. I suppose I got to live for the last 24 hours. So I won't complain too much now. Just wanted to update and all. More to come...
J-Leazzy