Missing my Baby Boy and Wihsing that He would call me
Right now Im soo soo soo depressed I can't eat think drink do anything cause I miss my baby so much and I wish he would get over this thing he is going through and just call me I want to talk to him but im guessing he don't wanna talk to me Im hurting soo bad from this guy but Im just trying so hard not to thionk but its the only thing that is on my brain is my baby boy. I talked to his dad and everything and his dad keeps telling me maybe he will get over it he dont wanna break up with me but he odn't wanna talk to me either. Well this morning I woke up anmd went to Church and I seen one of my friends named Gina she is cool. They had little kids there but my church reminded me of josh because he went there with me! My mom is worried bout me and my dad because I don't wanna lose one of the best things i ever had in my life my baby boy to care about me and love me the way he did and I don't know why I like to argue so much but that is what he tells his dad I don't wanna argue anymroe but I promise anything to have him back I wouldn't argue and I would just love to be back in his arms him loving me and letting me know that he is there for me when i need him to be I hope that this is a phase he is going through because I don't know what I would do if I lost him! I know there are other fish in the sea but none like him. We have a baby together and everything I mean I will just be there when he wants me to be there I am trying so hard to stand strong but it seems like everyday that goes by that I haven't talked to him is one more day I grow weaker and eventually if he doesn't call me Im gonna be soo weak I wont be able to do nothing but I love Josh and I just want me and him to work out and him stop playing games with my heart I love him and I nobody could ever fill the space that my baby Josh did but I guess if that time comes where I have to find somebody new I will just move on it won' t be easy but I guess I learned a new lesson in life! Im too afraid to ever love again! Good bye!