Pretty accurate lyrics
After seeing Marcus for awhile and having long talks about Buffalo, leaving, having to find completely new people without a safety net, plus listening to a lot of Jawbreaker in the past week I realize more than ever there was a good reason for leaving. Life was stale, and if I hadn't left then I have to ask myself if I would have ever left. There is a certain satisfaction in starting a new and I'm glad I found it. Next year I won't be coming home for the summer. I'm living in Boston. At the beginning of next year I will be changing my residency to Mass. I have great memories of Buffalo and there are a lot of great people there but this summer is the last time I will spend an extended period of time in Buffalo. Hope everyone is having a good time, I hope your guys St. Pats day was awesome, and lastly I hope everyone is happy in WNY. Lord knows I was unhappy in that area but I hope you guys aren't like me in that sense. Try to come out and visit next year. I'll have an apartment and a place to put you guys up. I want everyone to see what I've done with my life and how everyone else is doing. I'll be in Buffalo in two weekends to visit Kenz and his family. Then about 3 weeks later I'm done for the semester and will start the last chapter of my life in Buffalo. Miss you guys.
"Is it wrong to want to walk away when every day of your life looks like today and today looks like a rotting lifeless gray? I don’t know where things went wrong with me…but I feel like I’ve become a timid shadow of the person I’ve always wanted to be. And I’ve been thinking about my past today…thinking of all those times I was afraid…and all those times that I felt worthless and ashamed. I know, I thought I was strong. I said I would never change…but that burning house left me an empty frame…and no longer can I decay…no longer can I keep my heart locked away. Have you ever felt like you are wasting your whole life searching for something you can’t find? There’s been so much talk of so many slashed up wrists…but we’re much too young to be dwelling on thoughts like this. So scrape your heart up from the bottom of the bottom of the barrel. Keep your faith in the path that’s growing narrow. Kill the doubt inside your head. We overcome. We push ahead."
First and Ellen by Modern Life is War
"Is it wrong to want to walk away when every day of your life looks like today and today looks like a rotting lifeless gray? I don’t know where things went wrong with me…but I feel like I’ve become a timid shadow of the person I’ve always wanted to be. And I’ve been thinking about my past today…thinking of all those times I was afraid…and all those times that I felt worthless and ashamed. I know, I thought I was strong. I said I would never change…but that burning house left me an empty frame…and no longer can I decay…no longer can I keep my heart locked away. Have you ever felt like you are wasting your whole life searching for something you can’t find? There’s been so much talk of so many slashed up wrists…but we’re much too young to be dwelling on thoughts like this. So scrape your heart up from the bottom of the bottom of the barrel. Keep your faith in the path that’s growing narrow. Kill the doubt inside your head. We overcome. We push ahead."
First and Ellen by Modern Life is War