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Again, it's been such a long time since I updated. I know everyone usually doesn't have the patience for long posts, so I apologize in advance. Also, anytime I do post, Mike tells me to leave. What a nice friend.
Well, I'm starting my senior year of college. I could never imagine what I'd be doing at this point in my life, nor did I ever really even want to. It was that last bit of life I would live before I had to deal with the "real world." I always chose not to bother myself with it, and it's finally caught up to me.
I like college. It's the perfect blend of independence and irresponsibility, where I can do what I want to when I want to, but if I don't do something I have to, I only have myself to blame, and no one really yells. I personally think that's a great way to learn lessons.
So, I have this paper to do, and I did a lot of it, almost half, in a few minutes (it only has to be 3 pages long). It was especially easy because he explicitly said he did NOT want us using the book, so I got to ramble for a page. It actually came out pretty coherently, if you ask me.
But right, no one cares about that. Here comes the good stuff: what the HELL am I going to do next year? I guess from where I stand now, I see myself as having three, very vague and ambiguous "futures."
One, I could move back home and work at Shaw's full time as some assistant department manager or something, and pay back my loans. It'll be annoying, but it will be easy, I know I'm good at it, and I'm already well-like and well-known in the two stores that I'd like to work in. If I really hunkered down and didn't spend much money, I feel like I could easily pay off the bulk of my loans inn around a year.
Two, I could go to Japan with Mike (and Norm? And Lauren?) to teach English. Mike and Norm have had this idea for awhile, and it sounds really interesting, and just the kind of "experience" that looks great on resumes. This seems like the least "real-world-y" choice, because it's Japan, which means it's all video games and anime and shit, which I will fully appreciate. However, I think this one is also the most up-in-the-air, and may just end up stagnating because I'm not really looking into it.
(By the way, you should know I haven't fixed my "N" key yet, so any stray N's are due to a hypersensitive N key.)
Three, I think Lauren is looking at some Tax program (sounds like fun...) in Colorado. I would totally move out there with her and get some random job for a year or two while she got this degree or certificate or whatever, but if I did, I feel like that would close the door on Japan. If we could do Japan, then this, I'd be 100% ok with that, but I think she wants to get this out of the way as soon as possible.
What I really want is to not leave all my friends behind. I've been in a kind of weird mood all semester. I think it's partly because I'm an idiot and decided it would be fun to take 6 classes again for no reason, but also because Dan and Norm aren't here. They were two of my really good school friends, and it's a bummer that I don't get to see them as often.
Also, as for my Anime Boston friends, if I were to move anywhere away from this part of the country, when would I ever see you guys? Of course, if there are a few of us in Japan, you're all more than welcome to cram into our tiny-ass apartment. I don't think we could play sardines, but we could probably find some really... rewarding H-games to play.
I just really don't know what to do, so I'm taking everything a day at a time. Even doing that is tough: I don't really have much of a schedule for what I do after classes. I used to go to the gym 3 days a week, and we'd play D&D Sundays, but this year, I'm lacking in gym-mates and with only Mike, Melissa, Lauren and I playing, it's more like a double date than an RPG, and we've only played 3 times since we got back because everyone's very busy this year.
In conclusion, time sucks. Back to the second half of that paper, and congratulations if you actually read this whole thing.
Well, I'm starting my senior year of college. I could never imagine what I'd be doing at this point in my life, nor did I ever really even want to. It was that last bit of life I would live before I had to deal with the "real world." I always chose not to bother myself with it, and it's finally caught up to me.
I like college. It's the perfect blend of independence and irresponsibility, where I can do what I want to when I want to, but if I don't do something I have to, I only have myself to blame, and no one really yells. I personally think that's a great way to learn lessons.
So, I have this paper to do, and I did a lot of it, almost half, in a few minutes (it only has to be 3 pages long). It was especially easy because he explicitly said he did NOT want us using the book, so I got to ramble for a page. It actually came out pretty coherently, if you ask me.
But right, no one cares about that. Here comes the good stuff: what the HELL am I going to do next year? I guess from where I stand now, I see myself as having three, very vague and ambiguous "futures."
One, I could move back home and work at Shaw's full time as some assistant department manager or something, and pay back my loans. It'll be annoying, but it will be easy, I know I'm good at it, and I'm already well-like and well-known in the two stores that I'd like to work in. If I really hunkered down and didn't spend much money, I feel like I could easily pay off the bulk of my loans inn around a year.
Two, I could go to Japan with Mike (and Norm? And Lauren?) to teach English. Mike and Norm have had this idea for awhile, and it sounds really interesting, and just the kind of "experience" that looks great on resumes. This seems like the least "real-world-y" choice, because it's Japan, which means it's all video games and anime and shit, which I will fully appreciate. However, I think this one is also the most up-in-the-air, and may just end up stagnating because I'm not really looking into it.
(By the way, you should know I haven't fixed my "N" key yet, so any stray N's are due to a hypersensitive N key.)
Three, I think Lauren is looking at some Tax program (sounds like fun...) in Colorado. I would totally move out there with her and get some random job for a year or two while she got this degree or certificate or whatever, but if I did, I feel like that would close the door on Japan. If we could do Japan, then this, I'd be 100% ok with that, but I think she wants to get this out of the way as soon as possible.
What I really want is to not leave all my friends behind. I've been in a kind of weird mood all semester. I think it's partly because I'm an idiot and decided it would be fun to take 6 classes again for no reason, but also because Dan and Norm aren't here. They were two of my really good school friends, and it's a bummer that I don't get to see them as often.
Also, as for my Anime Boston friends, if I were to move anywhere away from this part of the country, when would I ever see you guys? Of course, if there are a few of us in Japan, you're all more than welcome to cram into our tiny-ass apartment. I don't think we could play sardines, but we could probably find some really... rewarding H-games to play.
I just really don't know what to do, so I'm taking everything a day at a time. Even doing that is tough: I don't really have much of a schedule for what I do after classes. I used to go to the gym 3 days a week, and we'd play D&D Sundays, but this year, I'm lacking in gym-mates and with only Mike, Melissa, Lauren and I playing, it's more like a double date than an RPG, and we've only played 3 times since we got back because everyone's very busy this year.
In conclusion, time sucks. Back to the second half of that paper, and congratulations if you actually read this whole thing.