Josh gets all love sick and bores his friends
What's the dealio yo? (say this real quick you can't help but say it over and over again.) So what's the dealio yo? Alot of my friends are doing soul searching or thinking about closed doors. No.. .must not have personal thoughts...grrr. Argh Talking heads' "naive melody" just came on winamp so it's pointless to resist. (My favorite Talking heads song)
Lately (since everyone else) I've been thinking about what I've been missing. For about a year now I completely quit trying to find that someone. I've been saving money for film. That's my only thought. Now I'm not quitting at all but should I? I could take a cruise or I have a good start saving for a house. Or get a better car, One that's not about to hit 200,000 miles. Should I sell out? I could completely fail making movies until I'm dead. I suppose what everyone does in finding happiness is try to gain peace of mind. They try to answer the biggest questions. Would I be happy with her? What would it be like to move away? Mine is what if I start making films? The point is to answer the most questions. I guess. There is one girl who if to come back I'd probably put the other questions aside. Or maybe it's me who should be coming back. Who left? Our split was the thing that made me realize this whole relationship love thing was not all I thought it was. Then I started looking for something else. Maybe I'm just a lemming looking for a different cliff to jump off of than everyone else. -Josh
p.s. I know other people read this (Yes I know) that I don't want to but I'm leaving it open anyway. Maybe she's been reading. <- There I'm a sap. Everyone happy now?
"Home is where I want to be
Pick me up and turn me round
I feel numb - burn with a weak heart
(So I) guess I must be having fun
The less we say about it the better
Make it up as we go along
Feet on the ground
Head in the sky
It's ok I know nothing's wrong . . nothing" -Talking heads "This must be the place" (Naive melody)
Lately (since everyone else) I've been thinking about what I've been missing. For about a year now I completely quit trying to find that someone. I've been saving money for film. That's my only thought. Now I'm not quitting at all but should I? I could take a cruise or I have a good start saving for a house. Or get a better car, One that's not about to hit 200,000 miles. Should I sell out? I could completely fail making movies until I'm dead. I suppose what everyone does in finding happiness is try to gain peace of mind. They try to answer the biggest questions. Would I be happy with her? What would it be like to move away? Mine is what if I start making films? The point is to answer the most questions. I guess. There is one girl who if to come back I'd probably put the other questions aside. Or maybe it's me who should be coming back. Who left? Our split was the thing that made me realize this whole relationship love thing was not all I thought it was. Then I started looking for something else. Maybe I'm just a lemming looking for a different cliff to jump off of than everyone else. -Josh
p.s. I know other people read this (Yes I know) that I don't want to but I'm leaving it open anyway. Maybe she's been reading. <- There I'm a sap. Everyone happy now?
"Home is where I want to be
Pick me up and turn me round
I feel numb - burn with a weak heart
(So I) guess I must be having fun
The less we say about it the better
Make it up as we go along
Feet on the ground
Head in the sky
It's ok I know nothing's wrong . . nothing" -Talking heads "This must be the place" (Naive melody)