I wasn't sure if I was ready for this yet.
If dreams really are a trip into the back of our minds, then I guess there are a few ideas that are not yet laid to rest. I don't remember the last time I've cried or really felt anything at all, but this morning I woke up with tears in my eyes, obviously touched by something that my mind conjured up in my sleep. I struggled at first to think of what dream I was having that started this emotion, but then it flooded into my head and wouldn't go away. The dream I had was about her.
She's become all but a memory to me. I havn't spoken to her in God knows how long, havn't seen each other since a random incident last summer. I've tried to submerge my feelings to the very depths of my soul so that at least on the surface, I don't have to deal with it anymore. This feeling of having the world in the palm of your hand. Being completely in love and then having it ripped away in an instant. It's the one sort of pain that I can't take.
I'll never forget the first time we met. I was at wrestling practice and it was the day before a match. At that point everyone is getting very focused and working hard, preparing for battle. After practice all the varsity guys leave the wrestling room and walk down the hall in the gymnasium to the storage closet where coach keeps all the uniforms for the next day. I'm standing in line waiting and I notice that a group of cheerleaders have assembled right next to these glass doors next to us. I guess no one gave it a second thought, but I'm usually the type of guy to give it a second look anyway. So I'm sort of checking out these cheerleaders when I realize they are all freshman. Oh well, no harm in looking, I wave to a friend I know and continue waiting in line.
I don't know what caught my eye in the crowd, but before I received my uniform from my coach I looked back again and noticed something. There was this girl right in the front who really just blew me away. Fireworks just started blasting around me, I felt for a while that I was in complete isolation, that everyone around had just disappeared and it was just me looking into her eyes. She was my idea of an angel, perfect in every way. I felt like God put her on Earth and whispered into my ear, You're doing a good job now don't screw this up.
She was all dressed up in a red, white, and blue cheer leading outfit. She had long brown hair that was absolutely gorgeous and equally stunning brown eyes that seemed to put me in a trance. She looked right at me; It occurred to me that I must have been staring at her for about a minute now. I was a little embarrassed at first but she just gave me this huge smile. She was bent over in an awkward position doing some leg stretch anyway so I just smiled back, it was kinda funny. She started laughing and began talking to another one of her friends. I turned to Brian, "B man, you know that girl right there?" "Yeah, that's Kelly Brady, I've known her since middle school.".... "Kelly Brady huh, I'd like to meet her."
She's become all but a memory to me. I havn't spoken to her in God knows how long, havn't seen each other since a random incident last summer. I've tried to submerge my feelings to the very depths of my soul so that at least on the surface, I don't have to deal with it anymore. This feeling of having the world in the palm of your hand. Being completely in love and then having it ripped away in an instant. It's the one sort of pain that I can't take.
I'll never forget the first time we met. I was at wrestling practice and it was the day before a match. At that point everyone is getting very focused and working hard, preparing for battle. After practice all the varsity guys leave the wrestling room and walk down the hall in the gymnasium to the storage closet where coach keeps all the uniforms for the next day. I'm standing in line waiting and I notice that a group of cheerleaders have assembled right next to these glass doors next to us. I guess no one gave it a second thought, but I'm usually the type of guy to give it a second look anyway. So I'm sort of checking out these cheerleaders when I realize they are all freshman. Oh well, no harm in looking, I wave to a friend I know and continue waiting in line.
I don't know what caught my eye in the crowd, but before I received my uniform from my coach I looked back again and noticed something. There was this girl right in the front who really just blew me away. Fireworks just started blasting around me, I felt for a while that I was in complete isolation, that everyone around had just disappeared and it was just me looking into her eyes. She was my idea of an angel, perfect in every way. I felt like God put her on Earth and whispered into my ear, You're doing a good job now don't screw this up.
She was all dressed up in a red, white, and blue cheer leading outfit. She had long brown hair that was absolutely gorgeous and equally stunning brown eyes that seemed to put me in a trance. She looked right at me; It occurred to me that I must have been staring at her for about a minute now. I was a little embarrassed at first but she just gave me this huge smile. She was bent over in an awkward position doing some leg stretch anyway so I just smiled back, it was kinda funny. She started laughing and began talking to another one of her friends. I turned to Brian, "B man, you know that girl right there?" "Yeah, that's Kelly Brady, I've known her since middle school.".... "Kelly Brady huh, I'd like to meet her."