the holidays without virgie vol. 2
yea this is gonna be a serious entry so if you're looking for laughes it's probably not gonna happen this time. and i'm not looking for sympathy or cheesy comments like aww josh i feel so sorry for you cause this is not what this entry is for. it's a way for me to get some things off my chest. as most of you know, virgie, my grandma, died april 1st of 04 and me and her were VERY close. yea sure you have to move on, but you got to understand, she helped my mom raise me when i was younger cause my dad was always offshore. then later on when things got rough she was there for me and believed in me when no one else did. no matter how shitty of a day i had, she could always make me smile and forget about my worries. i've tried my best to hide it, but it still kills me not to be able to see her. i miss her everyday. especially around this time of year. i used to love being with her and seeing how happy she always was this time of year. i think she loved this time of year cause she could be with everyone and visit cause it wasn't everyday that her whole family could be together. and she loved it cause she loved giving presents and making everyone happy. it was great to see the people who came to the party thursday cause it really helped me. no one knew it but i was very sad that day cause thanksgiving usually met a day with virgie and her cooking. my family wasn't even in town. i'm glad that my friends were there to help take my mind off of that. i'm sure it's just gonna get harder the closer it gets to christmas and then her birthday and then on to my birthday, but life goes on. i'm not a religous person at all, but i hope i'm wrong and i will one day see her again cause the thought of never seeing her again for the rest eternity just makes me wanna give up on everything.